3.66 GPA. not bad i guess?

of course i sound like shit NOW when i've felt really good about my playing for the past semester. of course now, a week before my recital. GOD this is stressful ( Read more... )

after tonight's practice session my recital has now moved up from SUCKING to being thoroughly mediocre.
Big step up!!!

oh and ross is pretty much certain he's leaving.

i'm getting really sick of one - sided friendships, and having to schedule my down time around when OTHER people are free. its really fucking annoying.

my recital is going to SUCK by the way

i am in so much pain it's not even funny. i just went swimming for the first time in 3 years. my shoulders are KILLING me. i'm not even sure how many laps i did but i know that i'm dying. i am SO out of shape its sick. i doubt i'll be able to play my cello tomorrow!!!

gotta go, eric is coming over so we can sit on our asses together

ross is such an amazing friend.

janet and i completely made up. it took me learning that she wasn't the only one who had to change her expectations, i had to compromise a little too. we were really really dependent on eachother and when she found someone else to depend on a little, i couldn't handle it. she knows that my actions were all coming from a good place though and she ( Read more... )

honestly. fuck.

march 3 last year was the last time it was a problem. and now its back.

there's something wrong w/ me

i've been really depressed lately. and not like "aw i'm bummed out boooo" kinda depressed. Like actually overwhelmed, not wanting to be around anyone, but at the same time feeling so incredibly lonely it kills ( Read more... )

i am sixteen hours away from my family and friends.

STOP IT. FUCKING STOP IT