Well, that's that.

[roosterbear]

I just took my final dose of Sustiva. I recorded the moment on iMovie, with the intention of making some sort of video about it, maybe show clips of me taking pills interspersed with audio voiceover talking about the process of changing meds, but that just might be a little too much work and/or drama for me. I have this image in my head of what I

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[gryphons_hole]

I cannot really say what the moment could turn into, but I imagine it is a moment of life that I would like to have documented.

I missed so much of the things I have been through with my health. I could all be great fodder for pieces I want to make know. I do wish I had more photos of then...

[roosterbear]

I missed so much of the things I have been through with my health. I could all be great fodder for pieces I want to make know. I do wish I had more photos of then...

I hear you. Even if I don't end up doing something really Big And Powerful with this, I'm glad I have the moment captured. There's a filter on iMovie that really works well with it too, something like "old movie" I think.

I've been reflecting on and off about this issue all day. I've gotten asked a few times if I took any pictures of myself when I had severe wasting and was down to 123 pounds (I'm 185ish now, and still considered by some to be skinny) and my first thought was horror. Why would I want to capture that moment, freeze it in time? I remember it well enough without some piece of my soul and energy trapped in an image staring back at me. Even though I'm sure it would have made for a dramatic picture, and reminder, and all that, I'm kind of glad that I didn't take pictures.

So why did I want to capture this moment? What makes it different? I think that the

[gryphons_hole]

Cancer is becoming an everyday event in our life, and yet so many people sit oblivious to the rotten experience it can be.

I wish I would have taken daily photos. I had started with polaroids, but lost my focus quickly. I cannot find the few I took at the moment.

I wish I documented everything, simply so I could wade through it now and pick out the good stuff.

I think more pretty people could use the horror of everyday events to shock them into seeing how much of the world is truly beautiful to behold, not just the trendy parts...

But I am oppositional that way.
; )

[roosterbear]

Thanks! Sorry I haven't been very responsive lately; I have been reading your comments and encouragement, and they've been helpful to me, but I haven't had the time to really say thank you.

Spring break is upon me, and I plan to do a lot of catching up. :-)

[rano_kwiatek]

:-*