Today is Joscelin's birthday. We spent it as we've spent all the days since he was injured - I bathed him, changed his dressings, chattered on about nothing just to fill the silence in a house that used to echo with laughter, and my husband lay still and quiet, unmoving and unaware of hole his absence has left.

Come back to me, love.

How can one week be one of the most stressful and worrisome of my life and at the same time be the happiest I can remember ( Read more... )

One of the benefits of being a full-fledged Auror is that, since I no longer require supervision, I can choose to work on my cases on Christmas, rather than spend the day staring at the miniature tree sitting on the table top and dwelling on the fact that there's no one here to stare at it with me. Another year with no contact from Mother. I ( Read more... )

Took my exams yesterday. I think I did pretty well, but you never really know, do you? They didn't tell me how long I'd have to wait for the results. The waiting makes me grumpy. This seems to be a common reaction because the senior Aurors are smirking and giving me a wide berth ( Read more... )

Joscelin told me last night that the wards on my flat have been re-done. That's my cue; it's past time to go back to the real world. I'll move this weekend, ostensibly because it's more convenient to do it when I've a day off ( Read more... )

It's been over two weeks since 'it' happened and I still can't get it out of my head. I'm furious one minute and depressed the next. At least I've been able to keep from crying at work, although I did send Peakes to Mungo's. Serves him right, the arsehat. People have noticed that something's not quite right with me, but no one's pushed much. ( Read more... )

Ran into Oliver at Joscelin's party. He looked well and things are okay between us now. He apparently has a girlfriend, though I didn't meet her. I hope he's happy ( Read more... )

Oliver's cousin owled. He's awake! SO RELIEVED. Took him long enough, the bloody prat. Have to see him. Have to see for myself that he's really alright. Have to kick his arse for pulling this shite. And then possibly hug him into unconsciousness again. Don't care if he minds. Don't care if anyone else minds. They can bloody well sod off, ( Read more... )

Tonks ripped me a new one today. I really thought I'd been doing better. I've been trying, putting the effort in, but it's still not good enough. Why do I even care? I didn't join for any great noble purpose. I was here for exactly the reasons Jimmy Arsehole Peakes says. When did that change? Why did that change? Should have stuck with ( Read more... )

Was supposed to go out to dinner with Joscelin last night, but restaurant was closed. Brought him home with me and ordered Greek food from Nick's place. Didn't mind him being here. Talked and cuddled a bit. He makes me feel safe ( Read more... )