i had a blast at home, especially seeing everyone and eating everything that i missed (bus boys nachos, bodos, christian's, mom's breakfast, pizza, pumpkin pie, etc ( Read more... )

my mind is all i have. material things = always getting me into trouble ( Read more... )

i'm beginning to think that retiring my social life (for the next 7 weeks) wouldn't be such a bad idea ;) i've been so worn out since starting my german course. my schedule for monday through friday is pretty much waking up at 6:30, german class til 12:15, errands/au pair work until picking up the three kids and then staying with them until 8 pm ( ( Read more... )

i wonder how many people around the world are feeling this sunken remorse? really sad. r.i.p mj.

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"i was never no, never no, never enough... but i can try, i can try to toughen up. i listened when they told me, if he burns you, let him go... change is hard, i should know" i've been here for a ( Read more... )

my friend just said something really insightful that totally resonates with me:

some expectations are voids that can never be filled, and people let that get in the way of things...

story of my life.

starting to feel better, though yesterday was hell. i've heard the third day of wisdom tooth extraction recovery is the worst, so true (for me at least). i had the worst throbbing headache all day... it felt like a terrible hang over x 20. damn. anyway, i cut out the vicodin and just stuck to advil and that made me feel better somehow ( Read more... )

so the part that i was most worried about was the procedure of the wisdom teeth extraction-- but that happened to be the best part... as in, i hope every surgery will be like that! haha and i wouldn't think twice about doing it again. i was on laughing gas and then got a sedative through an IV... the laughing gas was on the whole time during the ( Read more... )

i feel ridiculous about this, but i'm in denial about kuda's (my dog) death. i'm home for the first time since we put her to sleep (last sunday)... and i just keep expecting to see her walking around the house, scratching at the porch door to go outside, or incessantly trying to get me to feed her. i kept saying her name last night, and talking ( Read more... )

kuda is getting put to sleep. they almost did it today, but i freaked out. i need to at least say good bye to her. i don't think that i will be there for when they actually put her down, which is probably a good thing because i think i'd lose it. this fucking blows. i mean it's inevitable, and i'm glad that i can at least be here (in the country) ( Read more... )

i am so freakin ecstatic right now and seriously on the verge of tears... i'm so happy. words can hardly express it ( Read more... )