Of doing things for everyone else and getting left in the dust. What ever happened to getting what you deserve? How the hell do I deserve what I get? I just can't handle this anymore. Something has GOT to change and I don't know how to do it.

You keep pushing me away. Are we ever going to get back to where we were? Are you ever going to give us a shot at being as amazing as you and I both know we could be? I'm not so sure anymore. I'm holding on as tight as I can, but it's hard when all there is to grasp onto is a single thread, anchored by your words.

me: I woke up this morning and decided I'm Giving Up on Love ( Read more... )

Life hurts sometimes, but I let it. I'm not big on putting up walls. I try not to make new people pay for issues old people caused. I do the right thing. Probably to a fault. I feel alone right now. Or maybe it's the feeling that I know I will be alone very soon. All my friends are leaving with the exception of one person I used to be close to but ( Read more... )

I have no reason to be bummed out. There's a lot less stress in my life right now because of recent events and I'm going to be thankful for that.

and no sign of slowing down.

I just tell the truth. If you don't fucking like it, don't fucking talk to me.

Through a conversation I was having tonight I realized something. I wrote the line "Forever destined to be alone" in 2002, but it's more true now than ever.

The end.

But this deserves it.

I talked to Hayley and Josh from Paramore...ON MY CELL PHONE.

It was amazing.

And I love Patti for making it happen.

It's always the night before I go back home or come back to school that I have the most trouble getting to sleep and tonight is no exception. I'm looking forward to being able to play drums everyday again. I haven't played since I got here, how depressing. I also get to try out my new digirack and drum mics! Hopefully I can get a pretty decent ( Read more... )