so where am i now ? 33 single. a distinct lack of self improvement in the last 4 years. its almost like a love coma . why do i live my lovers life. as if mine is less important. no more ! ever again I swear ( Read more... )

today tali and i agreed to spend some time apart as i anoy her and drive her crazy .i hope its just an aprecieation break. ive never cried untill i was sick before . ive foolishly made her my life what will i do when she is gone

i left the comfy easy job i had for 11 years and packed ny belongings and moved to london and a new job . it was scary as hell.developed all new work skills quite rapidly good to know i can still learn new tricks . terribly missing saturday nights out and seeing all my friends . but its good to cut down on the booz and all the other things i used ( Read more... )

i ended 2008 by crashing my car its not serious but my no claims are now gone. london trafic sucks : ( i got lots of nice presents and spent lots of time with tali 13 months on and all kinds of hurdels overcome. i still love her every bit as much if not more .

looking back at the last time i gave up fags in my journal .i was so upset lonely and emo . im hopeing i dont do that again and if i do someone slap me .ive not smoked weed in such a long time now and i dont miss it . now fags are next on my list of things i dont need in my life . and im starting running again after the 2 hour coughing fit i had ( Read more... )

i hate winter rushing from one building to another. trying not to get to wet or cold on the way . ive had a relaxing holiday. not done much went to northampton to see old friends, breifly . i very much enjoyed caching up with H on the phone miss you most. as recently i understand you more than i have ever done. ive been spending lots of time with ( Read more... )

found one recharged super bright bob sparkle. discoverd it outside having a ciggy at slimes
. a devil disgised as an angel gave it back to me . and for that i am eternally great full

found one recharged super bright bob sparkle. descoverd it outside havilg a ciggy at slimes
. a devil dusgised as an angel gave it back to me . and for that i am eternaly greatfull

friday night was rubbish was in bed by one left the club early due to bordom. saturday went to my local goth night and once again dull no sparkle . reguardless of how much i drank/ did. there was no happiness at all. the only time i smiled on sunday was wen i spoke to charlii . and that was because she reminded me of considerably better times . wen ( Read more... )

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