WOW its sunny out. So i waited for a call this morning for so long, in fact i missed half my class. The whole time thinking to myself, maybe she forgot, OMG!!!! Then i look over and realize that i have not plugged the phone cord into the wall from the night before when i used dial-up to do my research. I wanted to cry. But i didn't because... I uh ( Read more... )

I have been working on this story i guess you'd call it, and it's going really good. I'm running out of steam though because I waste all my energy trying to grab readers interest in the first pages. I'm on a break right now just jellin. I watched House tonight, it was a sick episode, its like my CSI. I know that may be blasphemy to some people, but ( Read more... )

Hello world, I come to you with eyes anew. For the longest time, I cared only about finding the answers to my own questions, and was fixed only on the things I wanted and needed to come out strong, not necessarily caring about or respecting myself, but doing it mostly for image sake. I always have been afraid to face judgement from peers because I' ( Read more... )

Hey. its been a long time since i been here, thought i'd give a run down of all the stuff thats been happening. Well i am through with the emotions from that girl, i can breathe deeply now without having to worry about choking on that lump in my throat, but i still feel empty. I've been going to therapy more and more, and since then i been just ( Read more... )

It is now the glorious year of 2005. Yippy! Anything i had with Teresa is over, but hey, you want to make an omelete you gotta break some eggs. So i guess i'll focus more on running and writing. New years was wicked. I was not drunk at all barely and i drank more than i've ever drank before. Matt however, (an old friend) drank way too much. I don't ( Read more... )

Christmas was a random series of events. Like always i feel awkward with people who are not otherwise or wouldn't otherwise lift a finger to talk to me if this holiday didn't demand unconcious acts of kindness. Anyways i have been notified by a friend that it is possible i am reading into life too much, over analyzing, and after thinking about it ( Read more... )

I started reading chicken soup for the soul today, actually i'm surprised at how good some of these stories can make me feel. I think sometimes all we need to be is reminded that pure kindness and love does exist, because we often get so caught up in trying to succeed and avoiding the meat grinder of deadlines, and due dates, and whatever that we ( Read more... )

The things I do alot of the time i feel have no significant purpose to anything. Lately there's been a growing depression inside and this emptiness that just eats me up and makes me sad. I have been running these days harder and harder, trying to hurt my body and make it pay for not letting me feel anything except the casm inside that just ( Read more... )