this makes me happier then it probably should.

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discuss.

And so I'm here again...

Things couldn't be changing at a faster rate, and I still feel restless, and discontent.

At this point, I could lay down and take it, like I normally do, or take some initative, and move on... from this situation, and from myself.

I'm still deciding at this point... moving on is preferable... but where?

* I got moved to a new class at the children's center... i'm with the anklebiters now (ages 6-8). I love it! The kids are adorable, even though I get an extra workout running after them/trying to pick them up off the floor, and there's not nearly as much drama with the other tas. They're at a higher level, too, so I feel like I'm actually teaching ( Read more... )

My birthday was made of awesome, and win... despite everything. Thanks guys :)

Bigger update later, i think...

This book is extremely bad for my sanity...
"Is it merely our habit to imagine danger, to sense it, and to bring it upon ourselves(...)?"

"Consciousness, intellegence, are not dangerous if one has enough emotion and enough sexuality to keep moving."
-Incest, Anais Nin

ahh... september... we meet again...

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I'm mad at myself for spending so much time with you, and your jeckyl and hyde-ness...

(Im too tired to recount the unpleasantries one by one... one minute I want to
banish you the next I want to be on a deserted island with you along with my
three favorite cds ambivalent yet in your bed we've yet to acknowledge what
really happened...)"

Sometimes, I wish you had let me stay in my shell...