i’ve tried to read the words you wrote, but it just makes me sad, leaves me feeling a little empty. i wonder what they must have done to inspire such words, and what i’m lacking that makes you seem so cruel for never referencing my name; do i just not inspire such emotions, or anything at all? i want to inflict the same feelings i receive in her ( Read more... )

i’ll calmly sleep ( Read more... )

i will set out
to settle this urge
under my skin
i’ve undermined me
ignoring your satori
i would not climb
inside without return
wilting through autumn
dodging denigration
doing less and less
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gravity always wins
such subtle manipulation
a heart is better when it’s beating
such a marvelous muscle
deadweight in dreams
drifting down again

there’s no point to this important but passed over polemical, as we have perpetrated this conceited cover-up together, and i fall. fast as you can flee for yourself, fast as you can dear fall, she’s doesn’t feel it, but she tries, but she tries. as we lay on the bed, fully dressed, with chin tucked tightly to chest, i was vying for a kiss to come, ( Read more... )

there was a time when you could mix, pretty girls with pretty knives, without the fear of finding some tragedy, well that just isn’t now when, the well off wishes they were somewhere else. she has the shit laid out so eloquently, and stares with such a fever, as if to lay limp among them, it’s not easy not to worry, about what happens next. we all ( Read more... )

another year has come and gone, and i still don’t feel the slightest strong, it’s a chemical imbalance that beats from inside head, keeps me wrapped up tight in bed, with bloody heart in hand, looking for a home. under skin i’ve under minded, my only hope for happiness; but all anyone knows, is i’m not like them, besides loneliness is not too much ( Read more... )

tonight it’s far too late, to decipher or differentiate, between insinuation and incrimination. no attempt was made to dispel the truth, to disprove my declaration made, or conceal the convulsions it created. just a mere nod to poetics pronounced. but i feel free of such childish things, when you speak so easily, your voice is poured into every ( Read more... )

for every secret shared there’s a thousand more, we won’t ever hear held deep inside ourselves, i only meant to say a little something more, this honesty is just too much for me. but being so socially crippled, it’s quite comforting, to find someone who makes you feel comfortable. i picture her as if she were a soothing song, as she rambles through ( Read more... )

another week wasted wishing away, for a change in atmosphere, or just a way out of here. while marriage makes her momentarily numb, she’ll soon remember what it is she’s hiding from. standing atop that retaining wall she built to barricade back, our beliefs of a life of better things, the plaster is peeling away. the daily dose will demolish this ( Read more... )

there’s something magical about a dream in decline, a response to reasoning, a little late but lethargic still. well i wished for a revival and i waited hoping for her, though the thought is starting to creep in that it’s never going to occur. i know i lack the linguistic lashings of better days, like the sweeping sounds of a symphony, something to ( Read more... )