Lying to myself

[riosrogue]

For months, maybe years, I've been telling myself I'm ok.  That my self-esteem is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better now than it was in my 20's.  That I like myself so much better now than I did in my 20's.  Maybe that is partially true;  there is something to be said for getting older.  You're less like to put up with

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[ms_guillotine]

I dunno what to say to this sweetie, I love you just how you are *hugs* writing about it is good, get it all out <3

[riosrogue]

writing is good...much preferable to crying every 5 minutes!

Love you too *hugs*

[kelles]

I can relate to so much what you say and it's so hard. I see other people at work get who/what they want and I'm afraid to take the chance to go after what I want. Or when I do I wait too long. I wish I could get a personality transplant too and be a confident extrovert who gets what they want all the time. I think it sucks that sometimes the not nice people always get what they want and the nice good people don't.

*hugs*

[riosrogue]

I'm definitely guilty of waiting too long. I had talked myself into asking this guy to go to a wedding with me in Nov, only to find out he's seeing someone. This is just but one example of my shitty luck.

I'm trying to be positive. This put a scare into me. If fate gives me another shot with him, I'm grabbing it with both hand and consequences be damned.