Today being the second of November I have two full days until my Shodan test.  I have been out of work going on two days because of an unidentified viral infection in my throat and I really am scared that it won't get better until it's too late.  My doctor said that I'd be OK to perform on Saturday, but if on the morning of I feel like I have a ( Read more... )

AHHHHHHH!!!!!   Everything I just wrote in this space was erased b/c my stupid computer decided to freeze!!!!   Fuck!  I had almost three paragraphs of intellectual thought that occupied this area and now it's filled with angry and annoyed script that no one really needs or wants to see in the first place!!!   Mother of all goats and their kids, I ( Read more... )

The holidays are arriving and i have hardly any ounce of cheerful enthusiasm. Yup, thats it. Fuck it. If nobody reads my entries in this stupid thing, it's pointless to keep on typing.

I am at my Dad's right now and it feels soooooo good to be here. I was talking with Susan earlier and she gave me many words of soothing comfort...which I need desparately right now. I have today and tomorrow off...ahhhh, wonderful. Training for my Shodan is kicking my ass. I bruised my the tendons in my left hand, the list goes on and on of ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like your current lifestyle is sucking out all of your energy...even from places you didn't think you had any left? I feel as though I am wilting in a world that runs 90 miles an hour faster than I can function. I never eat enough (because I don't know how to cook), my body is losing way too much weight, I hardly ever smile ( ( Read more... )

I LOOOOOOVE oreo cookies to the point that I think it's a serious addiction!!! My room-mate and I are phenes and all we have to do is look at each other and it's out the door for a midnight oreo run to wegman's. Thank God for 24 hour superstores ( Read more... )

Yay! I had orientation with Mike today at Red Lobster. Justin taught class tonight at NiHondo and gave everyone a great, well-rounded work-out. I'm very tired and sleepy so I apologize if my words come across boring or tasteless. Tomorrow (well, later today now that it's well past midnight) is my day off and I'll use it to shop for work outfits ( Read more... )

Well...it finally happened! After praying for strength I applied at Red Lobster in Henrietta as a server. My brother, Lou, serves at the Lobsta' in Greece so I already had my "in"...so to speak. All I have to do now is give John - my current boss - my two weeks notice. It all happened SO DAMN FAST. I walked in and applied on monday, then took ( Read more... )

I had a dream a few nights back that brought up some old emotions of one of my ex's. I haven't exactly SEEN him in a while but I do come across a few photos of us together now and then...well, more often than not. IT IS SO HARD trying to sustain the current relationship I am in while trying to bring the old one to closure. I'd like to say that I ( Read more... )

It has been exactly one month and two days since I've last entered my thoughts into my on-line web log. In these past four weeks I have turned twenty one, consumed my first LEGAL drink in public, adopted two beautiful tiger kittens, and acquired colored contacts that actually do contain somewhat of a prescription. I got the pleasure to break my ( Read more... )