I have always tended to be a bit pessimistic but lately my negative attitude seems to be just overwhelming me.  It feels like for every tiny step forward I make, something happens to push me another ten steps back.  I feel really small and helpless.  A few weeks ago I had a dream that my mother died and at her funeral I was screaming and crying, ( Read more... )

I do not love San Francisco.  It was disappointing because I always just assumed that I would.  Honestly, I liked Southern California much better ( Read more... )

I am struggling to get used to being with a man who really wants to be with me.  That is a weird sentence to write.  I just went almost three years with a man who didn't want to meet my friends or family, who didn't want to read my work, who didn't even want to hear about my work, who didn't go see my performance in the Vagina Monologues or my ( Read more... )

I just applied for graduation.  I cannot believe I am here again; another degree nearly complete.  I am very confident about being able to get all of the work done on time, I am much more concerned about things like contesting the B+ I got in this horrible course last quarter and turning in bullshit paper work to the appropriate departments at the ( Read more... )

I went on a lovely date last night with a boy I very much like.  He is really sweet and affectionate and super cute.  He rides a sweet fixed gear (and has a car), has a full time job that he likes, seems really responsible, has a degree in English and wants to go back for an MA in English.

He writes amazing poetry that isn't at all sappy or ( Read more... )

Oh and also I am going on a date with a boy tomorrow night!  He is a sexy biker boy.  I really hope it goes well.  Its been almost four months and... I need some damn action.

I feel so damn over-worked and under-paid lately.  I often hear people (esp. my interns) whine about how damn busy they are.  I wonder how my week compares.  Am I as busy as everyone else, am I more busy or am I just spoiled and whiny?  Lets find out ( Read more... )

Today, for the first time maybe ever, I started thinking of myself as a grown-up and it really freaked me out ( Read more... )

I just got home from listening to President Elect Barack Obama speak in Grant Park. It was really an amazing experience to be present at such a ground-breaking historical moment. Now I am not one to wax poetic about America or about so-called 'change.' I hope Obama does change America but I tend to believe that our two party political system is ( Read more... )

If this semester doesn't kill me, nothing will ( Read more... )