sometimes when you are reaching out to a friend for help...and you need something, just anything, you get nothing.

...the biggest loser...I used to scoff at it. I refused to watch it...I know its a horribly exploitative reality show, but now I find it so inspiring. Really its the reason I started my diet. Because I was SERIOUSLY thinking about applying for the biggest loser... and then I thought "am i really THAT big?" and the answer is NO, I was smaller than ( Read more... )

Tonight I went to dinner with my family. It was my grandmothers birthday. And it got me thinking about my life. I feel like I'm holding myself back because of bitterness. There are two things in my life that I am SO bitter about. One is a family issue, the other is an issue I'm not comfortable talking about with really anyone...some people have ( Read more... )

I've been in a shitty mood lately...and the colts lost today. BOO

some rambling ( Read more... )

so i have several different guys talking to me on myspace now, this is definately uncharted territory for me. i dont do the whole online dating thing....NO who am I kidding, I dont do the dating thing I dont even really know what to say to these people...but i will share one funny tidbit. one of the guys is not terribly blessed in the brains ( Read more... )

i'm having a terrible terrible couple of days. that is all

Friday, August 29, 2008 ( Read more... )

ok, i just checked my bankstatement and i am officially FREAKING out about money. insurance is expensive and where i was just barely squeaking by before, now Im shaving it close to the bone. with all my bills and rent and such. If anyone out there has anything they would like to pay me to do for them I will. Cause Im not making it

Ever kiss someone who was dating or married to someone else ( Read more... )