I am sofa king busy these days....getting ready for battle of the bands on Monday....finishing the mural...high school job interviews, teaching...prepping to cook for the staff next week....too much...still, I have a sense of peace...I let go of an obsessive craving I had for another person's love and approval...and I was released as well...I don't ( Read more... )

  My friend David came over this morning.  I made yummy vegan breakfast burritos and we played music and did some step work and lots of talking.  I owe David my life.  If he hadn't been there for me four years ago this Wednesday (the 4th), I'm certain I wouldn't be here today.  After our talk this morning, I think I'm going to be okay.   Thank you ( Read more... )

 Part of BTS is stopping the internal dialogue...My head is full of chatter most of the time...I'll be at a meeting or with somebody and something will be presented while in my mind I'm formulating a response or analyzing what's being said...the result is that because my mind is not still, I'm not listening as closely as I could be...and I'm ( Read more... )

Today I interview for another position...teaching 4th year and AP Spanish at the high school....I have mixed feelings, because I love where I work, but I'd really like to teach motivated  students....I'm also a firm believer in change as a motivator for reaching another level in life...If I don't get the job, I'll be fine too, because I already ( Read more... )

  I wrote a letter of apology to my friend...tried to call her on Saturday night, but I'm guessing she was screening my calls...I have kind of a sense of relief (along with grief, embarrassment, and all) that I've done my best to clean up my side of the street...I hope that someday we can become friends again, but I don't expect anything...It would ( Read more... )

I often confuse what I want with what I need, when in reality my needs are few...I need food, shelter, some degree of safety and security, and that's about it....the rest is icing on the cake, so to speak...Needs are important...vital for living....wants, not so important.  Sometimes I give what I want the same importance as what I need...I want ( Read more... )

 I was talking to somebody about a dilemma I have with a friend who "suddenly" decided she didn't want to be close any more....and they asked me a very pertinent question, "Was a paying sensitive attention to what signals she was sending?"...and when I slowed down and thought about it....I had to admit that I wasn't...I was so into this person ( Read more... )

 I usually stay on a pretty even keel, but yesterday something happened that really ticked me off, and I reacted to it in a way that, thinking back on it, I wish I hadn't.....I work with a person that I really like....we were really good friends and then, suddenly, she clammed up, stopped talking to me or even acknowledging my presence...the cold ( Read more... )

mi amigo craig is marrying laura on june 20th in hawaii....way to go guys...nice to see good stuff happening to people I care about....
Today, after about 47 minutes sleep last night, I am going to have a busy day....I had really good full lessons yesterday and it seemed to work better than not having enough for the students to do....so, I'll give ( Read more... )

 Today I resolve to treat others around me with kindness and common courtesy....that may not seem like a big deal, but I've been noticing lately how rare things like compassion and courtesy are...so I'm giving it away today ( Read more... )