I can't give any advice, I can only say that I understand the panic attacks and the sudden 'irrational' fear thing. And that I wish you luck with your decision, and that no matter what I'm here for you. You are a wonderful, strong, caring woman. Always remember that. Whether you do this or not that doesn't change :)
Think about it like this Maren, if you don't do the internship you'll be beating yourself up for MUCH longer than an anxiety attack out in the field would last. The disappointment in yourself if you don't even TRY would be MUCH greater than if you couldn't hack it out there. You're a daring sort of person and you CAN do this if you dare to. Have you tried bringing your own pillows/sheets for hotel stays? The scent might make you feel calmer if not make you feel relaxed enough to sleep. Not to mention you're a Scaper, we scoff at getting a full 8 hours ;)
That's actually a very good idea. I usually bring my own pillow, but I never thought about bringing my own sheets, which actually makes a lot of sense because hotel sheets are cheap and scratchy anyway with a thread count of, like, 100.
And if it was just one day of lack of sleep, I would totally be scoffing. But I'd probably be running three days straight and getting all of two hours (tops) per night, which probably wouldn't be good.
I'm probably going to bone up and take the opportunity anyway. I would totally never forgive myself if I didn't at least try.
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And if it was just one day of lack of sleep, I would totally be scoffing. But I'd probably be running three days straight and getting all of two hours (tops) per night, which probably wouldn't be good.
I'm probably going to bone up and take the opportunity anyway. I would totally never forgive myself if I didn't at least try.
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