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Memento Mori
It was September 2012 when yaoi lead me to Buck-Tick. I took a stupid quiz that I decided to make my whole personality, the Seme Uke quiz. It determined what type of Uke or Seme you are and it was when I was reborn as a Dramatic Uke. Every Uke/Seme type had a song that embodied them and apparently, we Dramatic Ukes have a theme song to bind us ( Read more... ) -
WHY
How do you push yourself to draw when you feel demotivated even though there are things you want to do and achieve?A good friend dropped this question on me and it’s been a month or two since I told him to give me time to answer. It was a question that rattled me because it demanded I look into myself, specifically, my practice to be able to answer ( Read more... ) -
Hospital Fairy Update
It turns out that eating only convenience store maki, probably any convenience store food, for two consecutive days was NOT a good idea. The maki spree coupled with my lack of sleep, apprehension and looking back at it now, scaling the steps of the hospital to the 6th floor in the hopes of taking advantage of the situation to improve my cardio and ( Read more... ) -
Hospital Fairy Day 2
I don’t know why I titled this journey Hospital Fairy, probably patterned it with the K-pop term ‘Ending Fairy’. I woke up and knew immediately that I felt better. See? Food and sleep. The little visitor’s couch was not exactly good for my back but it wasn’t that bad ( Read more... ) -
Hospital Fairy Day 1
It could have been any other day except it wasn’t. I imagined what I could have been doing that Friday, probably typing away on my laptop for work and switching between blasting lofi and coffee shop bgms in the background. Joshua would be sitting behind me playing Farlight 84 and that new Garena game and by the end of my shift his sister would have ( Read more... ) -
Lemon
I instinctively knew that Bengi would not survive another day when I took him for a bony embrace and heard rattling in his lungs. I did not doubt this and looking back at it now, I wasted no breath on wishing for a miracle. I poured everything I had to thanking him for all the warmth and the love he had injected into my life ( Read more... ) -
Bengi
There is a strong possibility that my beloved cat has cancer ( Read more... ) -
Mr. Bicycle Man 2
Hello, Randy,
You’d shit yourself if you saw me now. I know you will. My friends who knew me from years back always tell me so. I am positive your eyes would pop out of their sockets and your mouth would reach the ground in disbelief, but you’ll be smiling. You'd be happy for me like always and our conversation would flow like the couple of years ( Read more... ) -
Run
London did things to me, no Hamilton did, my protracted stay away from home..? The much awaited reunion with my sister and the company of my cousin? The coffee I drunk hours ago? It doesn't matter now ( Read more... ) -
Teach me how to say goodbye
I chanted 'not gon' cry' to myself on my way to the gate, as if the words would congeal and form into a valve, each repetition tightening the already leaking floodgate and preventing it from spilling entirely.
As the plane took off, the nausea of the ascent hit me in waves, a heavy weight pressing me firmly unto my seat. My stomach churned and for ( Read more... )