I do not know myself anymore.

I cannot help but feel that there are at least two persons sharing my mind... or... the space inside me... and neither of them is me. I've no explanation as to who I am, but neither the weeping wraith nor the outwardly-ordinary ... girl, woman, whatever I might be seen as... is truth ( Read more... )

I find myself thrown down in spirit, this evening.

Walking with Gwen and Teddy was meant to be a pleasant excursion, and was, until we chanced upon an acquaintance of Gwen's in the park. His name suits him. Savage. He acts like one, under the ability for pretty speech.

I tried to be friendly, as everything in Gwen seemed to hop that I would ( Read more... )

I never knew I could love another person as much as I have always loved my brother, but coming home and having Gwen there feels just as right. She carries a warmth I've not felt from anyone else, and wraps me up in herself whenever I need it, or even if I just want to be near her. She loves me and doesn't fear saying it, though I imagine few ( Read more... )

I nearly hesitate even to mention it, as I am wary of ruining my progress, but I have been sleeping. It seems almost as though my reflection ought to be more solid now, as I am more than the too-thin ghost of myself that has been present these past several weeks. I cannot even say that I have returned to myself, for I believe this is the most I ( Read more... )

I only left my bed once this week, that I know of. An improvement, although whether from sheer exhaustion or the handful of conversations I've had with Vanessa, I cannot yet say. I couldn't speak truthfully that our visits are easy - she asks few questions, unlike the man I was sent to as a child, with his incessant needling and demands until I ( Read more... )

I find my environs somewhat lonelier than that to which I have accustomed myself at school. I have Luc, and he is, as ever, the most darling of fellows, but aside from the girls I've made acquaintances of in the past several years, to whom I could not consider myself particularly close, I have arrived at a juncture where there are few around me in ( Read more... )

Something isn't right.

I found myself in the solar just now, as I did yesterday, very early, and I know I didn't fall asleep there either night, as I remember kissing Trist and Gwen goodnight at my door before I went to bed ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted, but so happy I don't mind a bit. Our holiday has been perfectly lovely so far, and I almost wish we never had to leave, except that I'm sure I'd begin to miss Ivy's Run quite soon. I do love being at home, too, so long as Tristan's there ( Read more... )

In two weeks' time I shall be home for the summer! I love school dearly, and I shall miss Luc, but more than anything I long to be at Ivy's Run with Tristan. It's been our chief time together since I began at Beauxbatons, and I would trade it for nothing ( Read more... )

Luc kissed me.