I've been with Joel for a year and six months and it's been wonderful. Yes, we've had our ups and downs, but we always seem to work it out. The other day we got into a huge argument and he said that I was afraid of commitment which really had little or nothing to do with the argument, but then he said something that I couldn't believe, I was in ( Read more... )

I feel used.

So I went ice skating for my first time ever yesterday and it was really fun.....until my head bounced almost a foot off the ice...that hurt. I suffered a minor concussion and a little spine damage but what my boss doesn't know won't hurt him. I need to work all the hours I can so I can get the Super Rissy Sama Chan a ticket to come see me! Anyway ( Read more... )

I decided that I don't like depression, it's not for me. I don't like the overbearing gloomy cloud...it doesn't go with my shoes. So I have made my ultimate decision that I will be in charge of my life and I will no longer burden myself with the self-destruction of my parents. From here on, I will be my own self and true to my convictions ( Read more... )

All my 'Couve buddies so very much! Right now I'm doing okay. Joel and I had a fight today and it helped me realize I'm a freakin' drama queen. I seriously need to learn how to relax sometimes. Anyway this week was finals and I think that I failed my math test but my teacher told me even if I did I would still pass. However, I am having a hard time ( Read more... )

Joel went to Alaska the day after christmas and I went to montana on christmas day which sucked rather badly! I got the new Evanescence, James Blunt, Hinder, AFI, and Stone Sour. My boyfriend got me a nice robe,perfume, and a nice notebook. My friend coury got me a fogger which is cool because it's surrounded by dragons and I got a few other ( Read more... )

Well everythings good with Joel and I. I went to the doctor's to find the reason for my sadness issues and it turned out that depression is a sideeffect of the birth control that I'm on...so that's all spiffers that I don't really need to be on any other drugs. My brother and his nasty girlfriend live with me and I want them out. My parents keep on ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do about my mixed emotions. I love Joel so much and I want him to be happy but I don't feel he can be happy with me because I'm depressed a lot lately. Then again I realized the only time I'm really depressed is when I'm around my family so maybe just getting away from them will help. He won't let me get on crazy pills because ( Read more... )

So homecoming is 1920's theme and I'm a little stressed but a little excited. I don't know if there'll be a lot of people following the theme.I know that Joel will make it fun.

One of my friends just passed away late friday night from leukemia so forgive me if I'm not pleasantto talk to.