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So I was in my basement going through some of my journals that I've kept over the years. I found one that had only one page of writing in it. I read it and I guess that what I wrote down was so hard for me that I completely repressed it, I don't even remember writing it. So I'm going to compile all my journals that I can find and go to a therapist ( Read more... ) -
Running and getting no where fast!
College is so much more draining than highschool was. I am constantly stressed and I just don't know how to talk to my teachers. Gah, work sucks to I really need to find another job. Anyway that's about all I have to bitch about. -
I love Joel, but...
I'm sick off his fucking video games. I understand that he likes to play but come on 5 to 10 hours a day is just ridiculous. I ask him to walk me home from work sometimes and 9 times out of 10 when I call he's playing his games. He then continues to throw a fit that I asked him to walk me home, I really don't see what I'm doing wrong....Gah I'm ( Read more... ) -
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So college isn't as hard as high school teachers lead us to believe but it's still a challenge. -
Long talks, short walks, and bus rides.
So today was my first day of college...I was really nervous at first and then I realized that it's high school all over again the only difference is you have to pay for everything! I only have 3 classes but I'm there for a full day. I'm an art major for those of you who were wondering. So my classes are pretty easy, one will require me to write ( Read more... ) -
I'm losing an endless battle that was pointless to fight in the first place...
I want away from my family, not gonna happen. I want away from the grasping claws of that witch woman, that won't happen either. I want out of Spokane, I want to travel, I want it all...Alas I have lost the battle and I feel I won't be there for the war. Depression has consumed my every thought, movement, and minute. It exhausts me, pains me, yet I ( Read more... ) -
Will it all just turn to memories?
Or will he still love me when he comes home, will he accept my flaws? Have I changed? Am I still in love with him....I'm so confused. -
Everything is so crazy!
My mind is all over the place. I keep thinking about all the things I should and could have done in the past and all the things I regret doing. I have gotten myself into a horrible depression that I try so hard to get out of, but it seems after all my hard work to keep myself happy, I fail miserably. I don't really have anyone to talk to about all ( Read more... ) -
Time to update
Well I have been working at Zips and I hate it, Joel is in Alaska, and my parents are truly getting a divorce this time. I know I have said multiple times that my parents are getting divorced but this time my mom has no choice. My parents moved in with my Grandma (mom's mom) a few months ago. Everything was fine and then my father started drinking ( Read more... )