Fic: Untitled (post- The Gift; the "Goodbye to This (and Hello to Oblivion)" & "Lilies" Remix)

[red_satin_doll]

Sunnydale Memorial Fanfic Awards, Round 27 Nominee: Best Angst, Best Characterization, Best Gen Fic, Best Quickie
Runner-Up, Best Angst (Gen)

Absence of Light Awards, Round 4 Nominee: Best Drabble, Best Author; Runner-Up, Best Drabble.  Judge's Comments: "I really like how this is AU, but doesn't feel like one. It easily seems to fit in with the

Comments

[kikimay]

Oh no! So much angst! Buffy's reaction is very IC, she wouldn't live without her sister. You actually make me feel happy about the jump in The Gift! :)

[red_satin_doll]

And isn't that a scary thing.

Thank you for the compliment! Did you read brutti_ma_buoni's original? It's miles better. This is sort of an "insertion".

[kikimay]

Yes, I read it.
It's a big scary thing, in fact! :D

[red_satin_doll]

Right? I mean, how much sadder could it get than the Gift? And then - BMB figures out an answer to that question. And I scoop up the angst like butter and slap it on my toast - the breakfast of champions.

[brutti_ma_buoni]

So am I a muse now? I like that idea... *ego swells*

I also love this idea - it flickered across my mind when I was writing, what if Buffy could remember Dawn but no one else could, but I didn't know where to go with it. And now you did, and it's amazing and devastating to Buffy. Great stuff.

[red_satin_doll]

Oh you like it? Well, you inspired it, so I don't feel like I did it, just received it, if that makes sense. (And I have no idea why, but it just made sense.)

On the other hand - you liked it! I'm grinning like a little kid on Christmas here- talk about ego swell! Thank you thank you!

I'd say you were a goddess, but Muse works too.

[kathyh]

Poor Buffy! That really packed a punch. Nicely done :)

[red_satin_doll]

Thank you! You are all just making my day. Did you read BMB's original?

I don't know that I'll write another one, as this is the first time I'd been inspired to do so. (Well, there is a Buffy & Giles post-Chosen ficlet roaming in my head, so, maybe....)

[kwritten]

*waves*

Incredible, I'm so glad you've stepped into BtVS Fanfic with this gem. Lovely is lovely is angst. *rushes off to read rec*

ps: " fanficcing other fanfics. Which says absolutely nothing about my creativity - or rather, it does, and none of it good" is everything that is good about the Universe. I HAVE FEELINGS about this.

[red_satin_doll]

Thank you for reading it! I'm really tickled by the lovely reception this is getting, although - again I say - BMB's story inspired it, and this is meant as a drop-in or addition to her's.

I HAVE FEELINGS about this. Yes I see you crossed it out but I would love to hear your feelings on this. Feelings are of the good! I imagine you have interesting thoughts to bear?

[gillo]

Ouch. Buffy was very close indeed to severe clinical depression even before she died, so this makes total sense. Depressing as hell, though - but very powerful.

[red_satin_doll]

Exactly.

BMB's original story was an AU version I had never consider but made SO much sense to me and was so incredibly moving. And the late seasons are my favorites (5-7), because I identify with Buffy's depression a great deal, so I'm very glad that came across to you. She really had been depressed on some level since Prophecy Girl, hadn't she? Seven seasons of PTSD and does she get any real therapy? No, just "pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep going." Then again, who would a Slayer go to?