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[ravensnape]

I've come to the conclusion that life is not worth the effort I put into it.

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[in_the_blue]

That sounds kind of sad.

What's wrong?

[ravensnape]

I'm just so tired of being kicked down. Nothing I do seems to be right. From the husband to the owner at work, there is no positive. I could bust my butt all day and the one thing that does not get done or the one thing I say wrongis the focus of their attention. I work well over 50 hours a week and husband thinks the reason I fall asleep at night is because I don't find him desirable anymore. WTF! I've no time to dye my hair, I wear the same cloths day in and day out. I don't even feel like a woman anymore, just a drone daily getting up and shuffling through the day. And heaven forbid, I have to show him attention. What about me? Show me attention. Rub my back for once, wash my underwear for once, match your own GD socks for once. He has over 75 pair! I own three pairs of blue jeans and one pair of work pants. I might get a bonus (visa gift card) at work if the owner carries through with her promise. Do you know what I want? A back rub-and no, this has nothing to do with your struggles right now, I've always wanted a

[in_the_blue]

Venting is always a fine thing to do.

A lot of people seem to be having a really tough time right now. So bogged down in the details of everyday living that they can't see past that stuff, and that's hard. I've had my moments being there too. I'd draw the line at the 75 pairs of socks thing, though. That seems like it's symbolic of a whole lot of things to me; his insecurity, your tiredness, how busy you are, the whole nine yards.

I... don't have any advice to offer. I don't want to give you empty words. Is there any way at all to take a step back and have just one day for yourself? So that you can just have a few minutes that aren't hard work?

[ravensnape]

Maybe not even for my self, but with the family. And not with everyone fighting. We will be taking a couple days for the HP book release. I've got a fancy room in an upscale hotel for free as the owner of the shops I manage is the general manager of two hotels on the Island Yes time together. But, basically it's still where I work so I'm not 'getting away' from anything. See what I'm saying? Then were going to a water park but the money I had set aside for that, in my warped mind, has just been blown by me getting the first speeding ticket of my life. Ninety dollars down the wrong water drain! Lots of other issues that I posted further down in this thread, but I'm OK now. Like you said, I just needed to vent.

[ravensnape]

Thanks for the concern. I've just vented in in_the_blue above your post check it out if you've got the time/inclination.

[ravensnape]

You must have a magic mirror somewheres around here because you are very accurate in your assessment. He is gone for days at a time on call at the hospital and I'm working way to much because it is peek season on the Island. To add insult to injury, he is going to be gone every weekend now through the end of Aug. for further liscensure which will lead to a pay raise but

[laurel_potter]

I'm sorry to hear you're sad. Can I do anything?

**hugs** XXXOOO

[ravensnape]

Yeah, let me move in with you. We can become the two crazy old cat ladies who dress up in costumes and go to fan events. Real rant is posted in

in_the_blue if you want the scoop.

[laurel_potter]

I read your rant above. I don't know what to say, really. Of course I'm here for you the best I can be. If you need to get away, come down here and spend a weekend or something. I'll see if I can get the pool ready.