I'm just so tired of being kicked down. Nothing I do seems to be right. From the husband to the owner at work, there is no positive. I could bust my butt all day and the one thing that does not get done or the one thing I say wrongis the focus of their attention. I work well over 50 hours a week and husband thinks the reason I fall asleep at night is because I don't find him desirable anymore. WTF! I've no time to dye my hair, I wear the same cloths day in and day out. I don't even feel like a woman anymore, just a drone daily getting up and shuffling through the day. And heaven forbid, I have to show him attention. What about me? Show me attention. Rub my back for once, wash my underwear for once, match your own GD socks for once. He has over 75 pair! I own three pairs of blue jeans and one pair of work pants. I might get a bonus (visa gift card) at work if the owner carries through with her promise. Do you know what I want? A back rub-and no, this has nothing to do with your struggles right now, I've always wanted a massage-a pair of shoes that don't hurt my feet and another pair of work pants so I'm not having to wash these every other day. In a nut shell I'm just done with it! Over it. I give up!
Thanks for the vent............God/Goddess knows no one on this end of the computer gives a shit about me.
A lot of people seem to be having a really tough time right now. So bogged down in the details of everyday living that they can't see past that stuff, and that's hard. I've had my moments being there too. I'd draw the line at the 75 pairs of socks thing, though. That seems like it's symbolic of a whole lot of things to me; his insecurity, your tiredness, how busy you are, the whole nine yards.
I... don't have any advice to offer. I don't want to give you empty words. Is there any way at all to take a step back and have just one day for yourself? So that you can just have a few minutes that aren't hard work?
Maybe not even for my self, but with the family. And not with everyone fighting. We will be taking a couple days for the HP book release. I've got a fancy room in an upscale hotel for free as the owner of the shops I manage is the general manager of two hotels on the Island Yes time together. But, basically it's still where I work so I'm not 'getting away' from anything. See what I'm saying? Then were going to a water park but the money I had set aside for that, in my warped mind, has just been blown by me getting the first speeding ticket of my life. Ninety dollars down the wrong water drain! Lots of other issues that I posted further down in this thread, but I'm OK now. Like you said, I just needed to vent.
Thanks for the vent............God/Goddess knows no one on this end of the computer gives a shit about me.
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A lot of people seem to be having a really tough time right now. So bogged down in the details of everyday living that they can't see past that stuff, and that's hard. I've had my moments being there too. I'd draw the line at the 75 pairs of socks thing, though. That seems like it's symbolic of a whole lot of things to me; his insecurity, your tiredness, how busy you are, the whole nine yards.
I... don't have any advice to offer. I don't want to give you empty words. Is there any way at all to take a step back and have just one day for yourself? So that you can just have a few minutes that aren't hard work?
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