A Pit of Sadness

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I find myself going through extreme mood swings. Depression technically. One day I'm perfectly fine and the next day - sometimes the same day - life is no good. I go through periods of hyperventilating, crying for no reason, and a pit of depair in my heart. I find distractions to get through it. Laundry, dishes, cleaning, etc. The

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I was surprised tonight to find recent updates here... seeing this one for the first time. I'm glad you still have a blog ... even if it is mostly forgotten

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You're right. Healing takes time. And sometimes random things trigger memories and all of the sudden you're sad again.

That weekend I realized that I needed to be around people more. I took my annual birthday/Thanksgiving vacation and hung out at the house mostly without a lot of interaction with people which didn't help. So I made sure to be around people during my annual two week Christmas vacation. Thankfully I haven't had weekends or days like that since that time frame. Sure I've been sad and cried, but I was able to point exactly to what triggered it instead of overall depression.