i am a bigger bundle of nerves than I ever thought possible.  maybe I've stayed quiet in the past in order to avoid acknowledging this.  or...maybe giving my fears a voice makes my anxiety worse.....not sure which

I find myself escaping into tv and movies even more than usual lately...and that's a lot, if you know me well.  Re-watching the movie "As Good As It Gets" is really putting Jess' situation into perspective (to a certain extent).  It's a bit different...and yet so many elements are so similar and familiar.

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I remember being mystified that people had enough money to buy expensive things like cars and houses.  Now, I know that I was right to question the logic of buying what one cannot immediately afford.  I wish I had listened to my gut back then.

I just want to disappear.  No expectations, no anger, no judgment.  Those three follow me anyway....whether they originate from someone else or me.

For the record: she may not be angry with me but I might be angry with her.

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She's my sleeping buddy.  She snuggles and spoons more than pretty much anyone I've ever dated.  She's also taken to burrowing under the covers with me.  Boo then proceeds to walk on top of her trying to get a close (but not too close) napping spot.  Snarge will periodically investigate a snuggle spot, usually near Boo who then hisses and sometimes ( Read more... )

"Have sex or just a good cuddle. We've said it lots of times: Physical contact releases oxytocin and other happy-making hormones. And feeling cuddly and warm about the world beats out feeling glum and self-punishing. The trick is you have to do it with someone you like because, most of the time time, sex with someone you don't like is probably not ( Read more... )

Trying not to be too public about it...don't want others moods to be affected by mine...also don't want people to try and cheer me up.  It just is what it is.