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This is where I am

In a dark park

Swinging on a swing

The only light that I have

Is the flashlight in my pocket

But I fail to use its illumination

I don’t want to attract any attention

That only other light

Are those of the people rushing by

And the mellow glow of something else

I couldn’t tell you what’s breaking the darkness

What’s allowing me to see

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this is were i am
stuck on a bench
waiting for my ship to come in
people are driving by
looking down and seeing through
but when they drive off
and they stop polluting my ears
i can hear a faint sound
like a dramatic rushing wind
but i know that its more then that
its the sound of people
people getting here to there
people with a purpose
a goal
a life
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so since my move in with the pattisons i dont really get the chance to get on the computer... they have one, with Internet and i'm sure i could get on if i asked nicely... but i dont like asking things of them... its a bit ocward there. since its not my home and i'm alittle afraid that they dont like me. know reason why and i know they dont think ( Read more... )

I’m tired of this contentment

Stuck in this average-Joe world

I feel held back

Leashed

Controlled

And trapped

Useless

Unable to help myself

Caged

Will anyone let me out I wonder?

Breathing freedoms air

But my lungs are barely functioning

While my body is contained

My mind is left wondering

But never knowing

I am never able to enjoy

The seductive breeze of liberty

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i feel empty

i feel emotionless

i feel selfish

i feel like i should be crying

i feel the frown on my face

i feel like i'm making choices that i will regret

i feel like i need someone now

i feel odd

i feel uncomfertable

i feel under-loved by the world

i feel like i'm selling my sole to the devil a little more each day

i feel drowsy

i feel emo

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I feel better now.

Last night I felt so overwhelmed, I was at the brink of tears.

But today I talked some things out with Will and I feel like there’s hope again.

I have so many things on my plate right now and  before talking with Will I just had no clue what to do. I was feeling overwhelmed and helpless. I was being forced to make a lot of adult ( Read more... )

Excerpt from my Private Journal:

Where am I?

I am at a stand still right now.

What’s going on?

I want to rely on god to guide me but I can’t help but be a back seat driver when it comes to my life. I don’t know where I’ll be come Saturday and I’m stuck here with nothing to do because of that. I could pack and get ready to move but when if I move in ( Read more... )

So yesterday rocked!!

It started by Chloe waking me up at like 8:00 so I could get ready to go downtown and take pictures. So I took my time making me look good and then we caught the bus down town. Little did I know thought, Chloe had never really explored downtown much so I took her to all the little allies that she’s never seen, the we checked ( Read more... )

I haven’t posted in forever. But I would like to change that.

I don’t really have much to say right now though. So I’ll take an insert out from my private journal and let you in to my mind a bit. So this is my feelings from 3 days ago.

And I promise my next entry will be a bit juicer and on current Amy events.

Subject: That’s life for you.

I feel ( Read more... )