Hunnie, you wanna know what?? I was happy for a couple days here cuz i thought I found someone amazing, but it turns out they are a phycho stalker rapist obsessive person. Now I have to come how even earlier and I cant go anywhere by myself or this guy will find me and kidnap me and rape me. He gave me weed laced with coke. I felt like I was gonna die. No one is happy all the time. No one makes good choices all the time. Belive me, I started a huge fight in my family with this whole thing. My dad wont talk to my sister anymore. I messed up, but its ok becuase everyone messes up sometimes. If we were perfect, life would be boring. Im soo sorry to hear about your parents, I am always here to talk if you need to. And if it makes you feel better, my whole family thinks im fucked up and is making me see a phychologist again. Yea, see no ones perfect. We are all fucked up and we cant change it.
A quick drop-in from Maren and her annoying 'pep' sessionpsychicdreamerMay 16 2005, 12:40:13 UTC
Oh darling. Sometimes I read your journal and my heart just aches for you because you seem like you feel so lost. I want to just wrap you in my arms and hold you. I think back to the first day I ever saw you, this shy, tiny, beautiful girl sitting in the back of a classroom. My eyes picked you out and I knew right away, before even meeting you, that you were special. And I was right, you are.
You say you suppose you'll never get better. I know it feels like this. Trust me, I know. So I hope you can take it from someone who really does know what it is like to be unhappy about choices and oneself and life in general...someday, things will fall into place for you. It's not easy, you don't just decide to change...it's rather hard actually and comes only with time and experience. I'm not trying to pull the whole "You're just young and you don't know what you want yet" thing. I've heard that. And I still resent it, to this day. That makes you feel like you're doing something wrong. Or whatever you are upset about is unimportant, like it
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You say you suppose you'll never get better. I know it feels like this. Trust me, I know. So I hope you can take it from someone who really does know what it is like to be unhappy about choices and oneself and life in general...someday, things will fall into place for you. It's not easy, you don't just decide to change...it's rather hard actually and comes only with time and experience. I'm not trying to pull the whole "You're just young and you don't know what you want yet" thing. I've heard that. And I still resent it, to this day. That makes you feel like you're doing something wrong. Or whatever you are upset about is unimportant, like it ( ... )
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