I recently decided to turn my life upside down, and besides the initial uneasiness at living completely alone for the first time in my life, I can't say I regret the decision. Even if ending a six year relationship with the person you consider your best and closest friend has its downfalls, like making the friendship a bit awkward and strained. ( Read more... )

as usual, I haven't posted in awhile. Writing is of less and less interest to me the more I become wrapped up in my little world of food and tickets, and who is being sent to the new restaurant my chef is opening and who is being moved up instead, and the truth of the matter is that it's all exhausting and I personally just want to go apply at this ( Read more... )

I have to admit that all of my life right now centers around the grand fantasy of James finishing photography school so we can get the fuck out of South Carolina. So far, plans for where to go are sketchy at best; one idea is Vancouver as in addition to photography he could get into film, and as far as I'm concerned anywhere that's a big enough ( Read more... )

I have come to some interesting decisions in the past few months. Making a conscious effort to drink less and as a result be somewhat more financially responsible is one of them (although the local music store shutting down in November doing closeout sales starting in a week should negate all good effects of that for me ( Read more... )

I came up with this idea to quit drinking and smoking cigarettes from yesterday (4/20) for a month (til my birthday, 5/20). In place I am allowed to, if I care to, smoke pot if things get too weird. So of course to celebrate this idea that I came up with while entirely too drunk Sunday, I went out Monday night for my last hoorah of drinking for ( Read more... )

i managed to drink from 4 pm to last call yesterday. yes, on monday. at least james came out with me for the last 6 hours of it, but i really don't know how that happened, especially because i never ate dinner. that much of an alcoholic. it's really scary ( Read more... )

just watched Itty Bitty Titty Committee (another film by the director of But I'm a Cheerleader), which I really only watched because I need distractions from smoking that don't involve moving around since it's cold as fuck in our place even though it isn't actually all that cold outside (go figure). The movie itself was okay, but the soundtrack ( Read more... )

Odd, according to various literature i'm supposed to be having a hard time sleeping due to nicotine withdrawal. and yes, i've had a hard time going to sleep, but once i do i cant get up. slept 12 hours today (thankfully it's my day off), haven't done that since high school when it felt like all i can do is sleep. and honestly right now i want to go ( Read more... )

Quit my second job. I actually had already put in my notice but decided to quit 4 hours before my last shift so I could go see roller derby last Saturday. Immature? Yes. But totally worth it ( Read more... )

that and i really wanted to see if i had anything remotely interesting in the last year, probably not so apologies in advance ( Read more... )