Comments | rainsinger: sigh #2

rainsinger

sigh #2

Mar 21, 2004 01:32

I am increasingly coming around to the view that I may be too emotional to exist in the world.

( a diatribe on childhood traumas and the unfortunate fates of farm animals )

sadness, history, memories, introspection, childhood

Comments 6

grazia March 20 2004, 22:48:31 UTC

i still feel guilty about having my teddy bear up on a shelf - like i should still be holding her every night as i go to sleep. i worry that she feels lonely and unloved up there. and i try to tell myself, "oh don't be silly emily, she's a stuffed animal, for chrissake," and then i reply, shocked, "no she's not! she's petunia, and i love her!"

hm. my poor teddy bear, getting all dusty up there. it really does make me want to cry. there's something so poignant about old toys.

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rainsinger March 22 2004, 07:47:02 UTC

"oh don't be silly emily, she's a stuffed animal, for chrissake," and then i reply, shocked, "no she's not! she's petunia, and i love her!"

thank goodness I'm not the only one. I lve the name petunia. such an unusual name for a teddy.

lillfive March 21 2004, 11:25:16 UTC

I thought maybe I was the only one who felt guilty when not showcasing
and caring for my stuffed animals well enough. But they aren't just
objects, you know? They were my companions and friends. That's why they
are still on my bed.

I think maybe some people identify with animals, even cartoon ones, so
much because animals have no guile, no secrets, no hidden agendas...they
just are. And even the wildest of animals can learn to love like a little
child. I hate living in this farming area where I watch herds of cattle or
sheep or pigs all year and then come spring they all disappear because
they've been slaughtered.

And as far as movies go- I was the one in the movie theatre sobbing
hysterically during "Castaway" when Tom Hanks lost his volleyball named
Wilson. I still tear up just thinking about it.

You are too good for this sometimes ugly world. But I'm glad you're here
because we need your love and wonderful energy.

love, M.

rainsinger March 22 2004, 07:49:18 UTC

I was the one in the movie theatre sobbing
hysterically during "Castaway" when Tom Hanks lost his volleyball named
Wilson. I still tear up just thinking about it.

me too! except i saw that film at home. heh. last week T ended up explaining why it was necessary for Hanks to let go of Wilson... :)

You are too good for this sometimes ugly world. But I'm glad you're here
because we need your love and wonderful energy.

*soaks up flattery like a sponge and radiates affection*

coalproximity March 22 2004, 14:14:50 UTC

ET!!
I just found our old copy of it when I was cleaning out the basement, and have every intention of watching it again soon. What an awesome movie.

And I can't talk about neglected toys right now because of the dreaded cleaning out the the basement, and all the stuff that had to go in the "giveaway" pile .. oh dear.

femmerin April 7 2004, 03:15:00 UTC

oh man... i STILL have anxiety about my toys feeling abandoned. major guilt involved. my first doll, who really was THE toy in my life, had her (cloth) face chewed up by my dog in an uncharacteristic act of vengence on his part, so it has been re-covered in a plain fabric; my friends all find it rather frightening (which, ok, i suppose it is to an "outsider") but i feel this need to DEFEND her. i can't just admit that she's beaten up because i think she's beautiful ( ... )