sigh #2

[rainsinger]

I am increasingly coming around to the view that I may be too emotional to exist in the world.

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[femmerin]

oh man... i STILL have anxiety about my toys feeling abandoned. major guilt involved. my first doll, who really was THE toy in my life, had her (cloth) face chewed up by my dog in an uncharacteristic act of vengence on his part, so it has been re-covered in a plain fabric; my friends all find it rather frightening (which, ok, i suppose it is to an "outsider") but i feel this need to DEFEND her. i can't just admit that she's beaten up because i think she's beautiful.

this past summer there were a few days of panic attacks when i started thinking about what happens to animals that don't get saved from the pound, and the ones who dont get sold in pet stores. THEN i learned about "puppy farms" and the tears started. oh man.

i read a book for my french class (can't remember the title, started with a G) where it was based in a mining town. i didnt care about any of the people in the book, they could all die. the thing that got me is that the author personified these two horses -- an old one and a young one. the old one practically grew up working in the mine, and the young one had just started and couldnt adjust to being apart from the outside. there was a line in it that roughly translates to "and they both were sad (or something) -- the old one for not being able to remember, and the young one for not being able to forget." it ALWAYS sets me off. i'm tearing as i THINK of it! and then both horses friggin' DROWN.

oh...and i still havent been able to finish ET.

erin.
(reine de la glace on BUS)