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so this roller coaster is fucking insane.
i'm definitely not strapped in because i've almost fallen out
one too many times.
but the no strap thing sometimes has its benefits,
cause the last 3 or 4 nights i was able to jump up and out to sit in the clouds 
with the stars <3

and no im not on drugs 
and no my star hasnt been confused with a shiny wine glass.

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things are held a little too heavily at the moment.

nauseated?   check

overwhelmed? double check

uncertain?  check check check

what happens now?  
where do you go and what do you do?

you can't pretend forever.

and sure you two can kiss it away and hide in the deep folds of coffee shops;
holding your cloves tightly and your hands even tighter.

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you should have never came.

you would think that would make your grand exit all the more insignificant.

you would think.

in less than 20 minutes the world was ending.

pacing. pacing.

i cant breathe!

sitting trying to make the room to stop from spinning,

but i still couldnt find my breath.

vision blurred.

i wish he wouldnt have seen it;

but he took my hand, 
put on my shoes,
and played me a lullaby in the car.

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i couldnt think of a better place then right here with you guys <3

too much for one little girl.

thank you.

thank you all for taking such good care of me while ive been in bed and all drugged up

i was so miserable and was certain this was going to be hell,
but you all made it almost pleasant.

-despite the whole not eating solid foods, the bleeding and fever of course : )

the company and love was and is very much appreciated.

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