Since I feel as if updating would only hold crap and boringness right now, I guess I'm going to stop updating my journal for a while and continue it at a later point and time... maybe as a different name, too ( Read more... )

My Halloween weekend plans ( Read more... )

I was in a good mood all day today :) That is, until I came home and got into a bit of a spiff with my grandpa. When he picked me up from school I was going off about how bad the car smelt of cigarettes and saying how I wished he wouldnt smoke in the car or the house, but he ignored it. Then when we got home I took a shower and Jesse came over to ( Read more... )

For dinner tonight I am eating 10 bagel bites, 4 chicken nuggets, and a Safeway Select cola :) It's very good. I went to Sophie's today after school until 6thirty or so, but I didnt eat rice like I normally do, so I'm hungry. If I'm still hungry after this, I dont know what I'll do! I feel like eating a taquito-type-thing from the Wal Mart deli. ( Read more... )

I'm not high or anything, but I'm tripping out pretty bad right now. I'm thinking about The Grudge and it's scaring the shit out of me. I cant sleep and I'm freezing, but at the same time it feels stuffy and hot in here. I feel like I'm sweating and that I'm short of breath. Why is that ( Read more... )

"you see, our relationship has changed completely, you dont give a shit about me and i really dont give a shit about you, i dont care how your life turns out or anything like that. I hope it goes well, and that you dont commit suicide or anything. This is the last thing you will ever get from me. Chao ( Read more... )

So much can happen in a few days... I dont know if choices made were bad or good, but Jesse and I arent together anymore as of Monday. Last night I had dinner with him, his mom, and his mom's boyfriend, which was nice. Afterwards him and I walked to the park to talk about our relationship. I dont know if him and I are going to go back out again or ( Read more... )

What happens during Homecoming STAYS at Homecoming, am I right?

But maybe I dont want this to just stay at Homecoming. Maybe I want it to progress into reality, my every day life. Maybe this was my wake up call to do what I need to do, get done what I need to get done, and move on from where I am at right now. It seems like the best idea, but it's ( Read more... )

I'm such a fucking pussy. I let him fucking take advantage of me. He's hours late to hang out and instead leaving when he comes up to me I let him give his shitty excuses and laugh it all away, thinking, "It's alright, he wont do it again :)" but he does... and I know the truth but am too afraid to let myself believe it. I cant break up with him or ( Read more... )

Darkness in the light, beauty in the breakdown... I love it!

~rag doll