at what point do people stop knowing each other? is it a matter of comfort, and then they just don't bother anymore, like there's no point in talking about daily things because you are so far beyond that? i have to think that everyone is not as a.d.d. as i am when it comes to personal relationships. i dunno, i've been trying to diagnose my ( Read more... )

here's most of an email i just sent my professor. MY PROFESSOR! and i wonder why i don't socialize much. psychoanalysts, let's have a field day with this one, shall we ( Read more... )

topping off one of the worst days ever, just five minutes ago, was a commercial that made me want to cry and give up at the same time. has anyone seen the commercial for the american heart association with the twin boys talking about heart defects? OH MY GOD. mostly i was nurturing my self loathing by thinking about how i've been feeling sorry ( Read more... )

today was relatively fun at work. of course, a usual day at b&n makes me want to kill small animals with my bare hands while wearing a loin cloth and carrying a club. but today was alright, i even ignored the fact that #1 hater/"oh no" girl was trying to kill me with v-carts and boxcutters ( Read more... )

will i ever stop trying to cycle through things,
i mean, am i going to keep making the same mistakes
and the same degenerative choices forever?

they had to call and call
and pick the worms off me like sticky pearls.

i have to stop drinking.
when i do that, all hell breaks loose.
i don't even want to get into it,
i just wanted to say that i have to stop.
isn't that the first step?

part 1: the subject ( Read more... )

i don't really have anything to write.
just want to jam out to ballroom blitz.
in fact i'm not really rachael.
i'm a monkey she hired to go to class for her.
little does she know i've been looking up internet porn in the computer lab all day.
SUCK IT, rachael!
eeek eeeeeek.
-the monkey

school's out, for five days ( Read more... )

besides the times i was teaching and used "because I'M the grown-up!" as the justification for why we had to do things, i am starting to think that being a grown-up about things is the way to go ( Read more... )