sitting here wondering if it's ever going to be different. will anything ever get to where i want it to? nevermind....fuck it.

my family makes me want to not exist anymore.....but i won't give them the pleasure. i'm sad today.......plain and simple. i just want to sleep for a long time.

upon hours of racking my brains brain on what the hell is wrong with me today i've come up with a couple of reasons why i'm in a fucked up mood. it's not that i'm in a bad mood it's just that i can't stop thinking. and yes i said my brains brain because sometimes when i get this way i feel like i have 2 brains. well.....2 minds i guess ( Read more... )

you know your good together when your bodies make a plus sign and not and equals sign when together ( Read more... )

zoloft, what it does for me. it subsides the bad thoughts, keeps the sexual thoughts and feelings away, and makes me walk around like a drone all day ( Read more... )

a little reassurance is all she needs to keep the bad thoughts away. the problems with her insecurities seem to arise every couple of weeks ( Read more... )

sitting here waiting for the next blow to my body from this girl that i live with. all i know is i can sit here all quiet like and all of the sudden i get a big fist coming towards my frail body. my poor body has been through so much and now i get this.....poor body.....my poor little frail body ( Read more... )

this week has been pretty productive, i guess. did an assload of laundry, took up pretty much all of the washers at the laudromat. it was horrible due to the fact that it was hot and humid. the humidity is something my body is going to have to adjust to ( Read more... )

the love i feel is so real, so deep. unlike any other ever experienced. thank you for teaching me what true love feels like.

Well the weekend was nothing short of amazing. Even though there were many hours worked it paid off on saturday night. Running around like children in the rain shooting eachother with foam bazooka's is definitely something that everyone should do. but only when your drunk. Everything after that was truely wonderful. all the things said and the ( Read more... )