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Oct 19, 2007 11:35

After 4 years in HP fandom, I'm getting increasingly fed up with it. Snarry was my first OTP and still does it for me like no other pairing, but at present I don't feel like it. Don't know what's happening, but looking at my HP-centred flist makes me sick. Maybe it's autumn depression? *confused ( Read more... )

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rexluscus October 19 2007, 10:05:02 UTC

I'm experiencing exactly the same thing. I scroll impatiently past all the HP posts on my flist. People rec things enthusiastically and all I feel is vague nausea.

Hey, that's the second time today I've seen Karl May referred to. Is this a sign?

quite_ah_safe October 19 2007, 10:58:35 UTC

Yes, what with the Snarry Games and Snape After DH fests - not to mention the upcoming Smutmas - one should think everyone is agog at fandom activity of late, but I've seen numerous posts likes this one.

Karl May was in fact my very first fandom - before I even realised what fandom and slash are. I was perhaps 10, and the biggest Mary Sue of all time! Now I see that Old Shatterhand and Winnetou are clearly meant for each other, but sadly - stories in English are few and far between and my German leaves much to be desired, but talk about determnination! Anyway, the sad thing is I've read all of the good stories in 2 days. In HP fandom - any pairing - that would be of course impossible.

If you want to follow the signs ;-) here is one in German - a great introduction to this pairing, UST. If your German is not up to it, this one in English is also very good. Check out karl_may and her journal, she has numerous recs in both German and English ( ... )

perverse_idyll October 19 2007, 16:37:15 UTC

What is it about fandom that's making you sick? I've always been picky, but I notice I've grown considerably moreso of late. Part of it is that Deathly Hallows really has affected my feelings about the characters. The book left a bad taste behind - the longer I've had to reconcile myself to its moral judgments, the more I've come to reject them. Snape still compels me, but for various reasons Harry's become a lot more problematic.

I don't want my HP attachment to fade, because I suspect it will mean my departure from fandom altogether. I haven't really found anything else that stirs me to that level of involvement, apart from a fondness for SGA. But, despite the fact that my beloved rinsbane is there, SGA doesn't provoke nearly the intensity of my response to HP.

On the other hand, if all the people who make Potterdom worthwhile migrate elsewhere, there won't be much reason for me to stay. :(

quite_ah_safe October 19 2007, 17:49:03 UTC

The thing is, I don't really know how I feel exactly. And why.
I guess I realised reading fanfic is gratifying, but it won't answer my problems and won't replace human contact - a mistake easy enough to make when you're confined to bed for a longer time ;)

But why does HP, specifically, make me nauseous?

Perhaps it's got something to do with the finality of canon. On some subconscious level we could always pretend our favourite scenario still could happen - but no more. I think I enjoyed the openness, the uncertainty of the final outcome.Then again - all my other fandoms have a closed, final canon and it doesn't bother my in the slightest. And Snarry was never very canon to begin with ( ... )