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After 4 years in HP fandom, I'm getting increasingly fed up with it. Snarry was my first OTP and still does it for me like no other pairing, but at present I don't feel like it. Don't know what's happening, but looking at my HP-centred flist makes me sick. Maybe it's autumn depression? *confused

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The thing is, I don't really know how I feel exactly. And why.
I guess I realised reading fanfic is gratifying, but it won't answer my problems and won't replace human contact - a mistake easy enough to make when you're confined to bed for a longer time ;)

But why does HP, specifically, make me nauseous?

Perhaps it's got something to do with the finality of canon. On some subconscious level we could always pretend our favourite scenario still could happen - but no more. I think I enjoyed the openness, the uncertainty of the final outcome.Then again - all my other fandoms have a closed, final canon and it doesn't bother my in the slightest. And Snarry was never very canon to begin with.

Perhaps part of it is due to, as you say, bad taste after DH, but that can be easily overcome with good stories by good writers - and I know better than reading something else. But the problem is - I don't feel like reading anything connected with Harry Potter.

A couple of moths ago, seeing anything HP-connected in real life (like a newspaper headline) would make my head turn, now - I look the other way. And fandom-wise: when I saw a good fic recced, it really made my day - the anticipation of reading it in the evening, the physical thrill of it. Nowadays my reaction is thus: I hear wikdsushi has posted a great one and instead of squeeing in delight, I pick a book. And promise myself I'll look at it later. And hope this feeling will fade away with time, but again - perhaps it won't.

And yes, I know exactly how you feel about other fandoms. At present, my fandom of choice is Master and Commander, because it requires so much effort on the writers' part - the language, the nautical terms, the tricky characterisation, an entirely different dynamic between the characters. But it's not the same, e.g. I don't feel the compulsion to stay up all night long reading one fic - as it happened, more often than not, with Snarry.