life and yea

[quietarchitect]

so i think i am pushing people away, when i talk to them i mean, everytime i visit starbucks brock asks whats wrong i never tell him the truth which i should cause i am sure he would want to know whats wrong. sometimes the truth involves him and other times its another guy and even other times its just my life. my life is going to work watching tv/

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[somberballad]

Coming from someone who knows where you are right now...this is what I think. I don't think you need a boyfriend I think you need reassurance. You, like me, put a lot into relationships, the people in your life mean everything to you because in some little way they have changed your life. All you want, all I want, is to know that you matter to those people that you care about most. You want Brock or Trevor or John or Judd or anyone to say that you have changed their life for the better or that they love knowing you. But the sad thing is that guys don't say things like that, because they are stupid and think it makes them look weak to tell their feelings. So we wait for them to tell us, or not to tell us, we wait for acceptance or rejection, we wait for a decision that ultimately doesn't come. We spend our whole lives waiting for someone else to tell is we are worth something. I could tell you right now that you are an amazing person with incredible devotion and zeal, you are passionate and so kind I can't help but want to be like you

[somberballad]

*has realized her comment was longer than you entry*

Sorry...

[quietarchitect]

thats fine :)better than no comment, lol. we should hang out sometime that would be fun. i just never really thought about it to tell you the truth. yea that makes sense. it means a lot that you want to be like me, but hey you are an awesome person too. i wish i could be like you too but then what if there was two of us in the world yea i dont think that would be a good thing. i wish i could say as many nice things about you, cause you are an amazing person with lots of opinion that need to be heard and a lot of advice to be given. it means a lot to me that you actually take the time to reply to my entries and blogs, and it helps believe me, it deffinitly gets me thinking about what you suggest and say and what i was thinking and some how finding the best part of both to hold on to and try and grasp the reason behind all of the confussion in life. i know i dont show it, and i dont say it but you do mean a lot to me i am just bad at showing friends that are girls that they mean a lot cause they do i dont know where i would be w/o all

[somberballad]

Hehe...I'm the same way with my girlfriends. My guy friends have always just been easier for me to click with...even the ones i don't "like" like. *shrugs* I won't hold it against you if you don't hold it against me.

And you keep saying I'm opinionated, I've never really noticed I was before. Sorry if I shove my opinions down everyones throats...most of the things I don't really mean probably...like "he beats his girlfriend"...I'm just talking. It's really hard for me to be myself at work, I feel like i have to do something different there to be accepted. I"m really a different person when I'm with my friends, a lot more passive.

So umm yeah...I won't make this really long again. But I will pick a different icon...*ponders*...Oooh...This is Josh Groban, my future husband, he can sing really nice.

[quietarchitect]

sry its kinda me motivated but really you do impact my life even if we do argue its cause of me, but yea sry