And your mother’s still calling you insane and high, swearing it’s different this time.
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that God never blessed her insides

I've been believing in something so distant, as if i was human ( Read more... )

I've been up all night again, which is nothing new. since the car wreck...since i got off dope i've been an insomniac, keeping odd hours. there's something comforting about being awake while everyone else is asleep. like...i can be myself without filter. when dawn breaks i feel uneasy... i think i know that stems from social anxiety. I feel more ( Read more... )

Every morning i feel it kicking inside me, telling me I'm no good at all.
though I hear the voices, I recognize them, they are the demons in us all.
I wake up hot, i wake up cold, but my trials are my friends.
Every little flaw digging in my soul, but my trials are my friends.
I can only win in the end,
my trials are my friends...

So, today and last night i helped jeremy move stuff from his old place to his new one ( Read more... )

So...hmm...what has happened in the past few days? hung with family, extended family, friends(against the rules, i broke free late at night) i needed to get out. not with family, i love them. but i need my friends too. went to dots diner with jobie and ashly. Jobie was so drunk he was falling asleep over his plate of food. sobering ( Read more... )

isn't there always with me? that rings truth like a thousand deafening church bells(cheesy enough for you? it is for me ( Read more... )

...and maybe that's for the best....anyway, gave up chasing that bitch of a dragon 20 days ago, it was excellent cardio, i lost TONS of weight....if you knew me you'd know that's a fucking joke because i weigh 125 soaking wet... none the less i did look like a skeleton, a very pale one...which is odd for a Cajun-french/Spaniard/British/Irish mix, ( Read more... )

5 am...still cant sleep.