oops.

[quetzalcoatl_9]

Well, in closing off my journal to people who responded they wanted in, I inadvertently realized a side effect - I can't keep clicking refresh to live vicariously through the lives of all those people who are more interesting than I am, even if they don't want to read my drivel. Thus, my pathetic existence has deflated like a wilting balloon

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[verlise]

*poke* I want to still be able to read your journal. Did I already say this? I am not sure.

[quetzalcoatl_9]

You did not, but you're now added. Yay!

[wanderingbastet]

We should get together for dinner and/or just to hang out sometime. :-) I know you guys can't come to our place or go out to dinner as easily, what with allergies and the spawn and everything (though you're absolutely welcome to do so, should you desire), but maybe we could do a sort of reverse potluck, and BRING dinner to you sometime. :-)

[quetzalcoatl_9]

I keep thinking you keep moving farther and farther out into the suburbs, put perhaps this is my misunderstanding of Maryland geography.

It would be great to see the both of you again. Come over, we'll have pizza.

[wanderingbastet]

Haven't moved anywhere since moving into Mike's condo, and we're not likely to move again until we can buy a house. (Though that move will, indeed, hopefully be some degree of "far away.") So it's not a far distance at all. :-)

Another option would be for me to come by after work some day, since it's just a couple stops down from my office. That's something that'd be easy to do on a day Mike's working late or something similar...

[smoonn]

Yes! Leif keeps asking where Kat and Mike are. :)

[controlledfall]

I've been facing this issue lately too. I met a really interesting person online who happens to live in the UK. We communicate on Skype using video chat, so you have a bit more of the human emotive connection. At the same time, however, this keeps me from spending time with my friends in real life and from pursuing my creative goals. In essence, looking back, I realize that the bulk of my life has been in the pursuit of or cementing of connections with others. Is there a point when one is "connected enough"? I'm addicted to the new.

Dr. Pete and Dan recently introduced me to Twitter (about which I only knew through stories of Egyptian prisons). Basically it's blogging for people with ADD. You only have 140 characters and you can send from all sorts of mobile devices. Precisely how much depth are we trying to avoid? I don't know.

[quetzalcoatl_9]

I feel the same way about the desire to make new connections - there's a sort of chemical rush for me when I can affect someone so they like me.

At the same time, I'm confronted with my misanthropy and desire to curl up and not do anything.

I think it's very contextual. I'm good in small groups of people with similar interests, but in a large crowd I just kind of clam up. I think I'm getting better these days, but I haven't really been able to test it out. I've been mentally getting a few lines together in my head for when I can't think of something to say.

"I'm a novelist" comes to mind, as soon as I freekin get a novel published, "I'm a Satanist" is also a good opener, but I haven't gotten to use that one either.

[quetzalcoatl_9]

And Dan's Twitter feed almost made me fall out of my chair at work.

[dimfuture]

When was the last time you just hung out talking with friends in the middle of the week?

Earlier this week.

But just getting together for dinner just because? No reason, no pretense? Does that happen anymore?

Yes.

Did it ever happen?

Yes.

LOL, MOVE OUT OF THE CITY! ;)

I stopped sharing my life online because it ultimately became a very masochistic affair... I don't have time to go into more detail about it, but I've gone through some very similar feelings as, frankly, I've watched friends' priorities change, and my importance in their lives diminish significantly. I'm happy that they're moving on to new things, but the selfish part of me hates giving up those close connections. But it takes two to make those connections happen, so I've had to let some things go.

More later. All my best until then.

[quetzalcoatl_9]

LOL, MOVE OUT OF THE CITY! ;)

There is some wisdom in this sentiment.

The city is a good place for single hipster urbanites. I'll swallow a gun if I move to the suburbs.

There would be lots to see and do if I was a single hipster, and/or not fucking TIRED ALL THE TIME.

< / grump>

[dimfuture]

Yes, lots to do if only you were someone else.

I sometimes worry about you, living in the very seat of all you seem to hate in life.

[quetzalcoatl_9]

I'm not sure it would be any different anywhere else.

And I'm not as bad as all that, I just like to complain a lot.