I walked, I failed. There is no solution left. No hope. Pride has waned, every time I try to pride something and fight for some worthy cause I get rejected, I get burned. What I want is what I can't have. Belief in myself is baseless now, how can I believe in pain and suffering, nobody beleives in it. I guess I have to accept what's given to me, ( Read more... )

I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING ON THIS PLANET! Take me as far away from Earth as possible. I'm on the verge of commiting terrible acts of evil. I have given up on my fellow man, how can I respect a plague ridden self destructive race? Nobody tells me the truth anymore, I am forced to question everyone. If I revolt against Satan or if I follow suit, my ( Read more... )

Oh, it's a strange day ( Read more... )

I feel so useless and alone right now. It seems as if everybody has written me off and forgotten about me. Why am I forced to feel the depression of darkness so much. Am I just a dreamer? Dreaming for a destiny I can not have? Will the darkness invoke me for a terrible and delightful indulgent path? Will I ever get the chance of an invocation, my ( Read more... )

It gets more annoying with each passing day and I know that's the point. To be an intellectual like myself you can imagine that this mind control shit eats away every ounce of philosphy from my veins. I used to take life with a philosophical fane but lately it's reduced to stupid comments and annoying chatter of quests for glory. I could care less ( Read more... )

I guess I should stop ranting about wrath, questioning timing, etc... It gets redundant, yet trust me the head games of hell make it so that it's all that is on your mind. I should just accept that everything is out of my realm of power and control because destiny is not up to me, but to the evil entities that I will run with themselves. I should ( Read more... )

OK I've been waiting for about a year now and still am forced to see no action step my way. I'm starting to wonder what the hold up is? Am I not good enough? What is it that is holding me up? All I can do is continue waiting but honestly nothing would feel better than nailing someone to the cross right about now. I'm an infant and I'm sick of being ( Read more... )

Abondeoned with the thought generator for another day. It's telling me all kinds of things I wish to not hear. Yet sometimes it will say something that catches my heart and soul, telling me I have a purpose and a place to prove who I am. Telling me that I will be united with my kind. I don't know if anybody knows how much of a job the thought ( Read more... )

I don't think anyone actually knows just how evil I am going to be. I plan on sin as much as I possibly can and anyone and everyone is going down. I will hail from the left to the right and back again because I know I have the iron to pull it off. I was a joke in the beginning and I still am considered a joke, but reckon my one and only home; I'm ( Read more... )

He is waiting like a hibernating predator. When he awakes and frees himself of the shackles he will use what's left to return every blow that was dealt to him for his whole life. He has a vendetta to settle with the stars. He will match the shock and checkmate to those who look down on him in his purist form. Destroying the foundations of ( Read more... )