Jun 18, 2012 23:06
flist love,
i entertain these sort of delusions,
visuals,
imaginary boyfriend,
birthday stuff,
see you all in therapy,
i do not need help with my addiction,
feeling just a little bit old right now,
my blonde soulmate,
life,
amazing friends--i have it,
secretly shipping myself with other peop,
violently heartmarks
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Now approaching 27 in December, I feel the pressure of living up to my own expectation too. I told my mom when I was 20 that I'd like to get married at 21, and if not 27. At 20, 7 years seems so far ahead of you. Now that it's nearly 6 months to it, I am pressured. But, it's not like I'm gonna let it rule my life.
I just resigned. I decided to not work full time until the end of the year. How much of this will follow through. I don't know. But what I believe, birthday is the day when you should feel accomplished by what you have had so far. This is the one day, no one would or could say bad things about you. And almost everyone you know or don't know would wish nothing but happiness. Take it, because it is the one day you totally deserve it.
Looking forward to wishing you happy birthday 1 year from now :D
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i think pressure that keeps you moving is good. i believe that you can live up to your expectations. good luck! :) i used to think birthdays were just a constant reminder of our impending death (a bit sad, but i was a weird kid) so i used to just dreaded them. but then i realized that birthdays are there to celebrate life. that is true, and i was a bit greedy with all the happiness given to me.
thank you so much ♥
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i think life is to be enjoyed one step at a time. overthinking won't change what can and will come. you're one hell of a lady, let me say lol. honestly though, this is so true in every aspect of life. i hope you had a great day and that you have a fantastic 23rd year! :D
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lol oh gee thanks! it's just that i was never the type of person who can clearly see myself ten years from now. i like living in the present, because that's what determines the future :D heehee thank you so much!
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how was the surprise fic, bb?
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i love it so much bb ♥
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shipping you with kise now bc of the age difference /CREEPY. really though i can totally see kise going after someone older... gdi that sounds like great fic waiting to happen oh no.
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did you know i am writing a kise/me fic. this is the extent of my delusions i swear. although we are the same age. MMMM YES YES YES THOUGH IF ANYONE WILL WRITE AN OLDER ME/YOUNGER KISE I WILL DIE OF SHIAWASE.
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OH MY GOD i want to read. I WOULD TOTALLY DO IT but i'm afraid i wouldn't do you justice sobs. ugh tbh i've so many fic ideas for kurobas but i can't write for shit and i'm much too lazy lol....
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omg it is so embarrassing. like i would seriously stop every paragraph or so and just facepalm while muttering WHAT AM I DOING but i can't stop. omg don't even worry about that! YOU WOULD MAKE IT AWESOME i believe in your powers!! lol i have been writing too although secretly. we should just write and let everything else fuck itself!
or you can shoot me your prompts and i will try to write it!
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