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qos

Birthday

Dec 14, 2007 05:56

I'm 43 years old today.
It's the first time in my life that I feel nothing about my birthday. Usually I'm happy, want to celebrate -- either alone or with others. This year, it's hard to care. The only thing I feel is a sense of sadness at my own sense of apathy.

( This becomes just a bit too depressing not to put behind a cut. It's not about how old I am. I couldn't care less about my age. )

lohain, daily life, lee, grieving, family

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qos December 15 2007, 04:30:16 UTC

*hugs
Thank you so much for the affirmations.
I really need them today.

coen December 14 2007, 14:54:59 UTC

It seems a bit unapropiate to congratulate you under the current circumstances. But since you say you want to enjoy today, and you don't want it to be like any other day, I am going to congratulate you.

Congratulations on your 43'rd Birthday!
I wish you many returns of the day, and hopefully in happier circumstances than today.

I'll be 42 in two months, and though I often feel old, people keep telling me that I am not old. And i know they are right. So you are not old either.
There's still many years to go, in which a lot of good things may happen.

qos December 15 2007, 04:30:46 UTC

Thank you for the good wishes.

makhsihed December 14 2007, 20:57:59 UTC

*hugs* Congratulations on another year - I hope you find at least some joy today, in its cracks and corners.

(My gods, I feel young. D: I'm just under half your age. I turned 22 the day after Thanksgiving.)

Warmth to you.

qos December 15 2007, 04:31:54 UTC

Thank you for the good wishes and the warmth.

It's damn scary how much younger some of you whippersnappers are. ;-)

I appreciate your friendship across all the different aspects of my life.

amqu December 14 2007, 22:34:21 UTC

I'm not much of a celebrator. For one, I never got in the habit even with religious observances in my youth since I was raised as one of Jehovah's Witnesses and we've just got the one celebration, and secondly, it's just not in my makeup ( ... )

qos December 15 2007, 04:34:16 UTC

I think you're basically pissed off because his death was the greatest milestone in the past year for you and you are not ready to give it the metaphorical symbol and march on with life.

Yes, that sums it up pretty well.

The differences in the way people perceive time are one of the fascinating and subtle ways religion makes itself felt in peoples' lives. I really hadn't thought about my own sense of it for a while. Yet again, you've inspired me to take a closer look at something.

I continue to appreciate your friendship.

queenofhalves December 15 2007, 07:53:42 UTC

*hughug*