It makes me laugh that she sounds like she is married to her. she just met her. She really made a bad move with dating her so quickly because she has really lost all hope in us ever being friends again. I told her to take time and figure herself out. So did a lot of ppl. She never did listen.

Hopefully she is happy.

Well lets see.. I drive now and have my own car. Three months ago my mother was told she had lung cancer. So they had to remove apart of her lung but she should be fine. My sister is getting married this june and I'm in her wedding party. I'm back at wheable taking day classes (grade 12 math and physics)so I can apply to fanshawe for architecture. ( Read more... )

I don't know why I always lash out at her...God, I know it hurts her. So why do I let myself be so mean? I don't feel like myself anymore. My head just spins when I think about everything that is going on. I don't feel real. I haven't for a long time. I feel like an actress playing me in my own life. Is that weird? Has anyone ever felt like that ( Read more... )

I can't live like this anymore, all I do is sleep. I hate how I look, how I feel, and how ugly the inside of me looks. I don't even feel real anymore. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't hurt myself again but, these days I find it very hard to take my mind off of it. I find myself wanting to drink or do some kind of drug, to just let me have ( Read more... )

I bought I car yesturday WOOHOO! Yes, its all mine!

Ok, I do believe lindz already posted these but i want them in my journal. Here we go..


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I did it, I got a tattoo :) It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. I didn't really like it at first but its growing on me. This is the first of many.. what can I say? lol

( Tattoos )

Anyway for all of you that don't know...IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!! I'm 19 and I can go to the gay club/clubs now!! :) 181 rocked my socks last night!!!

Also, I would just like to thank everyone for coming and for all my great b-day gifts :D

Anyway I am off so thanks again to everyone. love you all.

It would have been two years today...
I took it better then I thought I would. Well, i have been very busy..and I am so tired and stressed that I almost don't even care...who would have thought those words would come out of my mouth today?

It's funny how you asume that i started to talk to him while i was with you. Wow, I thought you would have known me better then that. I promised that i would never do that to you and i didn't. Whats happened to the promise you made me? I mean fuck I can't even do it to you know and we aren't even together. I am a lil' hurt that you would think i ( Read more... )