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Before My Heart Starts to Burn

Aug 19, 2011 21:11

Title: Before My Heart Starts to Burn
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 2500
Disclaimer: Not my boys. Kripke broke them long before I ever got to them.
Summary: Dean shows up at Stanford. To make sure his little brother is alright. Not because he has some mysterious illness or anything.

Written for the Dean-focused h/c Tags Challenge on hoodie_time. I was unhappy to see ( Read more... )

oneshot, preseries, dean, hurt/comfort, hc_bingo, supernatural, hurting dean is like crack to me, sort of almost fluff, sam

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purple_carpets August 21 2011, 21:04:12 UTC

Heh, yeah this is probably the closest thing I'll ever get to writing fluff (unless someone at some meme asks for something cotton candy sweat a la Boys Meet Kittens)

I don't know what's happening to my Sam. I've never written Stanfordera!Sam and I was expecting him to be closer to teen!Sam, but he flat our refused to be his usual bitchy, sullen self and who am I to argue with that? :P

crazybeagle August 19 2011, 22:39:58 UTC

Oh man...that would be so awful for a hunter to have a condition like that...Especially somebody so full of vitality as Dean. One of the worst, and expertly understated, moments that got to me in this was John telling him to suck it up and get over it or leave. And obviously he left... :(

purple_carpets August 21 2011, 21:11:17 UTC

Yes, that's what I was thinking when I saw the prompt on my list. It's one of the worst things that could possibly happen to Dean. Worse than any kind of torture he's ever been put through.
What I love about the John/Dean dynamic is that yes, John says all those terrible, hurtful things when he obviously doesn't mean them that way and Dean who is about the worst liar in the world, takes it all at face value.

tifaching August 19 2011, 22:50:25 UTC

"He misses those moments when he thinks he is dead." How awful to be in such persistent pain that this could be true.

I'm very happy that you decided to finish this, because it was prime hurt!Dean, awesome!Sam fic. Kudos!

purple_carpets August 21 2011, 21:13:20 UTC

Thanks so much. I'm really glad you liked it :)

verucasalt123 August 19 2011, 22:57:14 UTC

This was a beautiful picture of what Sam is willing to do for Dean and what Dean is willing to show Sam when he's completely unwilling to show it to anyone else in the world. Thanks for posting.

purple_carpets August 21 2011, 21:16:26 UTC

Aw, thanks so much for reading and commenting. It was interesting exploring what their dynamic would have been like during those years.

disneymagics August 19 2011, 22:57:26 UTC

Very descriptive! The imagery was great throughout the whole story. I'm glad your Sammy was on the concerned/caring side even while at Stanford. He took Dean in with no questions asked and didn't let his big brother persuade him to stop looking for what was wrong. It's sad to think about John writing Dean off as useless (one of Dean's bigest fears). Sad and yet believable. Nicely done!

purple_carpets August 21 2011, 21:28:39 UTC

I was actually really surprised Sam came out that way. Usually my Sammy only starts being good at the caring thing after S4, but for some reason he Stanford!Sam decided he didn't want to be anything like my teen!Sam or my S1!Sam. Go figure...but yeah, I don't think a bitchy, emo Sam would have worked here anyway, so turns out he was right.
Oh, and in my own little backstory John didn't really write Dean off. He just tends to say lots of hurtful things, because hey, Dean can take it and if he's been slow and useless at hunts lately, then maybe all he needs is a little negative re-enforcement and he'll snap out of his funk. Yeah, except John is also a terrible parent and has no idea what kind of terrible thoughts his words put into Dean's head.

Ahem...yes...anyway, thanks for reading :)