Boys, boys, boys. They've always been my main preoccupation-- I think that's pretty apparent from my blog. But maybe that's not doing myself justice; it's never been about crushes, or hotness, or stupid girly traditions. For me it's always been about this intangible, elevated state of living I thought would come from finding someone whom I could ( Read more... )

I know it's been a horribly long time since I've written anything. Those of you who I'm close to know why, and I don't feel the need to rehash all the details here just yet. Usually I think the details, the nuances matter, but not today. I grappled with them for a long time, made myself sick trying to figure things out, but I've finally realized ( Read more... )

As I try to focus more on the now and forget about the ever-looming fear of the future ( Read more... )

X-POSTED FROM MY BLOG BECAUSE I'VE BEEN WANTING TO COME BACK TO LJ BUT HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT A NICE WAY TO DIP MY TOE BACK IN. SO I'M CANNON BALLING. SPLASHHHH ( Read more... )

I had a pretty pleasant first day at Brown, which is not something I expected. Sofi and I got here relatively unscathed-- we met a nice military officer on our plane to Chicago who helped us with changing terminals, caught a taxi, had no issues checking in ( Read more... )

So I leave for Brown tomorrow ( Read more... )

I am so relieved. I thought I had blown my college chances for good.

But alas no!

AP Chem: 4
AP Calc AB: 5
APUSH: 5

SAT IIs:
Lit: 760
Bio: 780
US: 790

I'M SAVED.

p.s. i hate the college process.

I saw Ryker today for the first time in six months. He and Eric came out for 3 or 4 hours (such little time, so precious, i know), and we hung around the promenade ( Read more... )

SOOOOOO, the reason I have not been around this past month is because Jake and I have been having huge problems and I couldn't deal and school sucks and life sucks and blahblah ( Read more... )

SATs in less than twelve hours.

I'm trying to resist the urge to cry.

Wish me luck!

And if I don't come back, I loved you all very much.