today was great, spent the day with karissa at her house and with some of her friends, watched family guy, watched rockey horror, watched monty pythin and the holy grail went to a party got drunk and tommorow i'm going to the huntington art league open house with karissa and i'll be able to see kathy again, she was my sculpture teacher and she was ( Read more... )

ok so today was the psats and it was a joke math was all 9th grade stuff that i got and the english wasnt that bad if you took your time and stayed calm. so after alex picks me up and we head out to karissa's and hang out there and alex has to leave to go to work. so me and karissa hang out and watch rocky horror and her friends come over and to ( Read more... )

it was 11 years ago today that my dad died. i didnt say goodbye, i wasnt there and i feel bad still because i feel i should have been there. i was selfish and fought to stay home and play instead of going into brooklyn and seeing my sick dad. today i drove to the cemetary, it was the first time in years because i felt i fucked up and couldnt face ( Read more... )

ok i'm on the rammstein online team so please click the link ans watch there new video and if you dont like them just click the link and help me out, but its a fucking amazing, insane video and its worth watching. plus it helps me in the contest and i can get stuff so please help me out cause you all know how much i love rammstein ( Read more... )

ok so yesterday i left after advertising to go to my last psych evaluation and there satisfyed with my anger management control. but from some of the tests( all 2 hours of them) the shrink thinks" i could benefit from a anti depressent". i mean yeah i get depressed and sad and lakc energy or a appetite and dont get sleep sometimes but i dont think ( Read more... )

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i dont know but today i felt better then i have in a while, the fighting has stoped and i talked my mom into letting me get off grounding oct 1 definatly. i havnt gone into my workshop and worked on something in days, i love that room but i fear it also. whatever i make comes from some strong or pent up emotion and to get it out i have to relive ( Read more... )

ok so today was good. woke up late and the proverbail storm has passed and above that i convinced my mom to let me get off grounding a week early so i get off october 1st and i only have to pay half of whatever it costs to fix everything.

since wednesday night my mom has been yelling at me about everything and since last night i've been yelling back. Theres little to no meaning left behind the words except hurt and anger. its not even screaming fighting its beend the kind of calm fighting wherre you know she knows what shes saying and its not just meant to hurt and that she means it ( Read more... )