i talked to your mom today.

she said hearing from me cheered her up. she asked about michael and the kids.

why does it still ache so much? i don't want to say goodbye to you.

i have to admit. i wanted her to say that i was the one you loved the most.

i know i'll never have answers, really. sharon said you were intimidated by me - by the life i ( Read more... )

it's 2024 and i'm sitting here in the basement, listening to radiohead's pablo honey while avoiding work.

i'm not in my 20s anymore. not even my 30s.

i'm 42, going on 43.

so much of this journal is a record of owen.

my chest collapses as i write his name. still. 20 years later. i'm married to someone else and i have 2 kids and my heart aches for ( Read more... )

i think there are a few of you who live in toronto.. at any rate, i'm here 'til thursday, so if you're reading this and wanna hang out, comment or email or something!

hahaha such a cheesy subject header for what's been on my mind, but i'm putting it in anyway ( Read more... )

i'm still alive ( Read more... )

so, i'm in montreal right now and feeling super, super, super lazy!! i should head out soon, but i'm not sure what i want to do today.. maybe i'll walk down to a park and read or something ( Read more... )

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sonic, a local radio station, has this "venue" they call "the axe music listener lounge." artists come to play intimate, acoustic sets with about 50 people who can only win tickets to get in. guess who won herself a pair of passes to see her husband on friday ( Read more... )

never. drinking. again.

i'm pretty happy. still. just spent two hours talking to my crush on the phone and we have a 'date' on friday. he's on the same page as me in being lefty, not scared off by my being a feminist, doesn't put himself down for not having post-secondary ed., and is just so so so cute and funny. ahhh i haven't had a crush like this in so long. it's ( Read more... )