you say let the bombs stop ( Read more... )

so... today is saddam's birthday. i wonder if anyone baked him a cake.

http://www.mrandmrswheatley.co.uk/prettycreatures.html
if you've got a weak constitution, i don't reccomend watching this.

just got in from work. my dad was on the computer, and somehow we got to talking about colleges. i told him that i didn't want to go anywhere in state, and from there, things went to shit. for the next 45 minutes, he was kind enough to remind me of how fucking worthless i am. just when i thought he was finished, he walked away and then came ( Read more... )

i was in bed trying to sleep a few hours ago, and mellie calls and says she's gonna come over. i dunno what i was thinking, but i don't think i believed her or something. maybe i thought it was a dream or something. anyway, so we hang up or whatever, and i roll back over to sleep. the next thing i know, she's hugging me in my bed. i almost ( Read more... )

guess what?! i made my girlfriend feel like shit today! isn't it so wonderful! now i'm just like my dad. he'll be so proud of me.

god i'm a fucking loser. i don't deserve her.

I would like to take time to thank my 'father'. Thanks dad, for being an alcoholic. thanks for making me feel like absolute shit. thanks for teaching me that i'm worth shit, and that i'll never amount to anything. thank you for beating me when i believed you. thank you for turning me into a self-loathing addict. thanks for choosing a job, ( Read more... )

my throat hurts, and i don't know why. i was recently sick, but i don't think that's it. sigh. oh well. today was a pretty good day, nonetheless.

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last night was kind of an.. odd night. i was horribly tired, but i couldn't seem to fall asleep as quickly as i normally do. i also woke up about five for no apparent reason. my stomach is kinda bothering me... kinda like sick to my stomach... kinda... oh well. anyway, i gotta go. i'll update later.

life is a fickle effing creature. damn undulation. damn it to hell. i'm sad now, and i don't know why. i'll pull out of it. i don't resent the fact that i'm sad, it makes me really uncomfortable when people know i'm sad, especially melissa. i don't wanna make her sad or uncomfortable or anything. i'd do anything to keep her happy, so i just ( Read more... )

I just got off work at about one. I wrote some stuff and decided to make them into live journal entries. I used to write quite often, but i kinda lost motivation after some stuff happened this summer. maybe i'll explain what went down in a later post. i'm talking to my wonderful girlfriend melissa on the phone right now, so this isn't a very ( Read more... )