Wouldn't we all want to escape that way if we were faced with the Hell of Sona? Of course we would!
The warmth of Alex's imaginings is such a stark contrast to reality and I just loved this...
...the sound of footsteps approaching rushes over my tenuous grasp on reality like a wave pushing me painfully upward toward the shore instead of down to the peaceful abyss below
So eloquently wistful!
I think this is the start of a very dark period in the fandom...and somehow I think it's going to produce some fine writing! Depressing, yes. But still fine!!
The warmth of Alex's imaginings is such a stark contrast to reality and I just loved this
The fact that he still wants to be happy blows my mind. While there's no chance in hell of it ever happening he hold onto it for dear life like a floatation device.
So eloquently wistful!
Thanks! I was very taken with the whole walking under water from the drugs discusion he had with Sara and like to play with that theme from time to time. Its a great analogy.
I think this is the start of a very dark period in the fandom...and somehow I think it's going to produce some fine writing! Depressing, yes. But still fine!!
Agreed! I'm feeling pretty darn dark at the moment which is gonna filter into my fic -- when you write Mahone as much as I do you're gonna get a lot of dark anyway -- for a good long while I bet.
You are one special lady, lady!! ♥ Back at you my dear one!
This is a compelling extra scene you've given us and I'm in agreement with forxriverinmate on her fave line
the sound of footsteps approaching rushes over my tenuous grasp on reality like a wave pushing me painfully upward toward the shore instead of down to the peaceful abyss below.
Reminds me of what he said to Sara in reply to her 'walking underwater' analogy, about how peaceful it was down there, sigh. You got a real hold on the angst lately haven't you lady? ;)
I suck! All this fandom angst over Monday's ep is killing me slowly but surely. I could so use the pill pen for the next few days.
But hey being neck deep in angst makes for good Mahone ficing so I'll just work it for the common good until the fandom explodes into a million shreds along with Alex's sanity. :oP~~
Reminds me of what he said to Sara in reply to her 'walking underwater' analogy, about how peaceful it was down there, sigh.
Ha! You're good! I just got done telling foxriverinmate that stuff was just what made me right that line.
Alex is like a drowning man. Sometimes he fight so hard to break the surface he's willing to kill... other times he stops fighting and lets it him suck him peacefully down. Its an amazing character!!
You got a real hold on the angst lately haven't you lady? ;)I've spent one season in the MS camp, one stradling the line, have a lot of friends from both all over the place but sadly that line isn't something you can straddle at the moment
( ... )
I haven't really been party to all the imploding over SWC's fate but I can imagine what's going on. At least you can use all teh angst to positive effect like with this fic.
I'll go wander off and have Michael straddle Alex to soothe my soul.
Hhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm... I don't think you ever watched Invasion (apart from that fantastic gagreel) but you always read this and pretend it's Alex/Michael ;)
You know what, after our little convo yesterday about ships, this ficlet makes me painfully aware that I really ship Pam and Alex. There is something so heartbreakingly tragic about their relationship, that they never stopped loving each other just eats at my heart.
I hope we see her again someday.
In the meantime, it is interesting in moments of repose that he longs for death, when in the light of day he was willing to kill Whistler to insure his longevity. I love how his mind is at cross purposes. Maybe if he actually dries out from the drugs, he'll be able to deal with what his life has become--or at least, he'll be forced to deal with it.
You know what, after our little convo yesterday about ships, this ficlet makes me painfully aware that I really ship Pam and Alex. There is something so heartbreakingly tragic about their relationship, that they never stopped loving each other just eats at my heart.
His desperate love -- you can see its her and Cam that keeps him from floating away for good -- for her and his lil boy that makes a Alex a different man.
For all the thing he is or isn't the fact that he loves -- it was rather unexpected to me when they threw it into the mix -- so deeply and completely shifts him a lot for me.
That was something all on its own but when they showed us that she still loved him and wanted him as badly he wanted her ( she put up a protective front because he hurt her but she couldnt hide it)... let us know he was loved in return he was a very different character.
Its sad :o) They're all sad :o(
I hope we see her again someday.I wish he'd have gotten to see her just once. Linc held Veronica... Michael held Sara... it meants so
( ... )
Sadly I believe once he gets past the withdrawal the weight of what he's become, all the things he's done, will eat him alive. But maybe he can still get some sort of Kellerman-esque redemption...I will hope anyway. My big dream is he somehow helps Michael and Whistler--with no thought for himself.
But maybe he can still get some sort of Kellerman-esque redemption...I will hope anyway. My big dream is he somehow helps Michael and Whistler--with no thought for himself.
Works for me! Except maybe without the helping Whistler part. I have a strong feeling he's, the opposite of Alex, appears good/victim... but a bad guy in reality, not what he seems and am not sure I want Alex to go down for that guys.
For Michael... YEP! The noble ultimate self sacrific things works good for Michael or Linc but the jury is gonns stay out on Whistler for a bit.
Oh ... and if he has to go I REALLY want him to know he's loved! If he can't see Pam or Cam ( he should ... its only fair ) he needs to talk to them.
I posted a sequel on this one a few minutes ago :o) Enjoy tonight
Oh, I missed you writing about Alex and Pam. Today I've watched Unearthed again and I'm still awed by it. Wonderful episode and here I'm having a wonderful fic. Brilliant! :)
For all his intense reaction to Michael * wink * ( I think maybe Alex is drawn to and driven by people as opposed to a gender ) I think he'll need to keep a hold on that former good life to keep from slipping away forever inside of Sona.
Such a beautifully wasted soul.
LOVE HIM!!
Someone tell miss_vacant, she thought I'd dump him for another, that I still love him!!
Wrapped up in my arms she -- that little slice of heaven I never deserved -- chases away the chill thawing my cold aching heart.
Oh poor Alex! *hugs him* I just loved his scenes last week. I thought he was fantastic with (suddenly-very-chipper) Whistler. I'd like to watch that scene again with your fic in mind, knowing what Whistler had interrupted.
You see its that face right there in that icon that drove me to write this.
He's was different, oddly quiet... peaceful... almost open, when he talked to Whistler. At first I toyed with the thought he'd taken something, maybe he did... he went looking for it, but I needed another less painful explination for what I saw.
I'm glad you liked this.
As much as he needs and wants Pam I don't think she could take seeing him like this so I'm thinking that call he made was the right thing to do.
He's was different, oddly quiet... peaceful... almost open, when he talked to Whistler.
He so was. He looked exhausted and somehow relaxed - fits in perfectly with your fic. (I loved what he said about Michael in this scene - can't say that enough)
so I'm thinking that call he made was the right thing to do.
I guess you're right morally, but selfishly I want her at the fence rooting for him.
He so was. He looked exhausted and somehow relaxed
You noticed that too? I thought I was the only one. Do you think he took something when he was down there in needleland?
Was that before or after Michael asked Lecheros man for * something to pass the time * or after? It certainly sounded to me like Michael was asking for drugs which had me wondering if was getting them for Alex?
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The warmth of Alex's imaginings is such a stark contrast to reality and I just loved this...
...the sound of footsteps approaching rushes over my tenuous grasp on reality like a wave pushing me painfully upward toward the shore instead of down to the peaceful abyss below
So eloquently wistful!
I think this is the start of a very dark period in the fandom...and somehow I think it's going to produce some fine writing! Depressing, yes. But still fine!!
You are one special lady, lady!! ♥
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The fact that he still wants to be happy blows my mind. While there's no chance in hell of it ever happening he hold onto it for dear life like a floatation device.
So eloquently wistful!
Thanks! I was very taken with the whole walking under water from the drugs discusion he had with Sara and like to play with that theme from time to time. Its a great analogy.
I think this is the start of a very dark period in the fandom...and somehow I think it's going to produce some fine writing! Depressing, yes. But still fine!!
Agreed! I'm feeling pretty darn dark at the moment which is gonna filter into my fic -- when you write Mahone as much as I do you're gonna get a lot of dark anyway -- for a good long while I bet.
You are one special lady, lady!! ♥
Back at you my dear one!
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This is a compelling extra scene you've given us and I'm in agreement with forxriverinmate on her fave line
the sound of footsteps approaching rushes over my tenuous grasp on reality like a wave pushing me painfully upward toward the shore instead of down to the peaceful abyss below.
Reminds me of what he said to Sara in reply to her 'walking underwater' analogy, about how peaceful it was down there, sigh. You got a real hold on the angst lately haven't you lady? ;)
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I suck! All this fandom angst over Monday's ep is killing me slowly but surely. I could so use the pill pen for the next few days.
But hey being neck deep in angst makes for good Mahone ficing so I'll just work it for the common good until the fandom explodes into a million shreds along with Alex's sanity. :oP~~
Reminds me of what he said to Sara in reply to her 'walking underwater' analogy, about how peaceful it was down there, sigh.
Ha! You're good! I just got done telling foxriverinmate that stuff was just what made me right that line.
Alex is like a drowning man. Sometimes he fight so hard to break the surface he's willing to kill... other times he stops fighting and lets it him suck him peacefully down. Its an amazing character!!
You got a real hold on the angst lately haven't you lady? ;)I've spent one season in the MS camp, one stradling the line, have a lot of friends from both all over the place but sadly that line isn't something you can straddle at the moment ( ... )
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I haven't really been party to all the imploding over SWC's fate but I can imagine what's going on. At least you can use all teh angst to positive effect like with this fic.
I'll go wander off and have Michael straddle Alex to soothe my soul.
Hhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm... I don't think you ever watched Invasion (apart from that fantastic gagreel) but you always read this and pretend it's Alex/Michael ;)
http://brushed-velvet.livejournal.com/8147.html#cutid1
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I hope we see her again someday.
In the meantime, it is interesting in moments of repose that he longs for death, when in the light of day he was willing to kill Whistler to insure his longevity. I love how his mind is at cross purposes. Maybe if he actually dries out from the drugs, he'll be able to deal with what his life has become--or at least, he'll be forced to deal with it.
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His desperate love -- you can see its her and Cam that keeps him from floating away for good -- for her and his lil boy that makes a Alex a different man.
For all the thing he is or isn't the fact that he loves -- it was rather unexpected to me when they threw it into the mix -- so deeply and completely shifts him a lot for me.
That was something all on its own but when they showed us that she still loved him and wanted him as badly he wanted her ( she put up a protective front because he hurt her but she couldnt hide it)... let us know he was loved in return he was a very different character.
Its sad :o) They're all sad :o(
I hope we see her again someday.I wish he'd have gotten to see her just once. Linc held Veronica... Michael held Sara... it meants so ( ... )
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But maybe he can still get some sort of Kellerman-esque redemption...I will hope anyway. My big dream is he somehow helps Michael and Whistler--with no thought for himself.
Can't wait for 8 o'clock!
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Works for me! Except maybe without the helping Whistler part. I have a strong feeling he's, the opposite of Alex, appears good/victim... but a bad guy in reality, not what he seems and am not sure I want Alex to go down for that guys.
For Michael... YEP! The noble ultimate self sacrific things works good for Michael or Linc but the jury is gonns stay out on Whistler for a bit.
Oh ... and if he has to go I REALLY want him to know he's loved!
If he can't see Pam or Cam ( he should ... its only fair ) he needs to talk to them.
I posted a sequel on this one a few minutes ago :o)
Enjoy tonight
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For all his intense reaction to Michael * wink * ( I think maybe Alex is drawn to and driven by people as opposed to a gender ) I think he'll need to keep a hold on that former good life to keep from slipping away forever inside of Sona.
Such a beautifully wasted soul.
LOVE HIM!!
Someone tell miss_vacant, she thought I'd dump him for another, that I still love him!!
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Oh poor Alex! *hugs him* I just loved his scenes last week. I thought he was fantastic with (suddenly-very-chipper) Whistler. I'd like to watch that scene again with your fic in mind, knowing what Whistler had interrupted.
Great stuff.
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He's was different, oddly quiet... peaceful... almost open, when he talked to Whistler. At first I toyed with the thought he'd taken something, maybe he did... he went looking for it, but I needed another less painful explination for what I saw.
I'm glad you liked this.
As much as he needs and wants Pam I don't think she could take seeing him like this so I'm thinking that call he made was the right thing to do.
Hmmmmmmmmmmm?
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He so was. He looked exhausted and somehow relaxed - fits in perfectly with your fic. (I loved what he said about Michael in this scene - can't say that enough)
so I'm thinking that call he made was the right thing to do.
I guess you're right morally, but selfishly I want her at the fence rooting for him.
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You noticed that too? I thought I was the only one. Do you think he took something when he was down there in needleland?
Was that before or after Michael asked Lecheros man for * something to pass the time * or after? It certainly sounded to me like Michael was asking for drugs which had me wondering if was getting them for Alex?
I may have to watch that part again.
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