You know what, after our little convo yesterday about ships, this ficlet makes me painfully aware that I really ship Pam and Alex. There is something so heartbreakingly tragic about their relationship, that they never stopped loving each other just eats at my heart.
His desperate love -- you can see its her and Cam that keeps him from floating away for good -- for her and his lil boy that makes a Alex a different man.
For all the thing he is or isn't the fact that he loves -- it was rather unexpected to me when they threw it into the mix -- so deeply and completely shifts him a lot for me.
That was something all on its own but when they showed us that she still loved him and wanted him as badly he wanted her ( she put up a protective front because he hurt her but she couldnt hide it)... let us know he was loved in return he was a very different character.
Its sad :o) They're all sad :o(
I hope we see her again someday.
I wish he'd have gotten to see her just once. Linc held Veronica... Michael held Sara... it meants so much to both but I doubt we'll ever see Alex have that chance to know first hand face to face that he's loved. * sniff... sniff *
In the meantime, it is interesting in moments of repose that he longs for death, when in the light of day he was willing to kill Whistler to insure his longevity. I love how his mind is at cross purposes. Go back and check out the comment a couple back where I talked about Alex living, fighting his way to the surface... slipping under, like a man thats drowning.
Maybe if he actually dries out from the drugs, he'll be able to deal with what his life has become--or at least, he'll be forced to deal with it.
Sadly I believe once he gets past the withdrawal the weight of what he's become, all the things he's done, will eat him alive. TRAGIC MAN!!
Sadly I believe once he gets past the withdrawal the weight of what he's become, all the things he's done, will eat him alive. But maybe he can still get some sort of Kellerman-esque redemption...I will hope anyway. My big dream is he somehow helps Michael and Whistler--with no thought for himself.
But maybe he can still get some sort of Kellerman-esque redemption...I will hope anyway. My big dream is he somehow helps Michael and Whistler--with no thought for himself.
Works for me! Except maybe without the helping Whistler part. I have a strong feeling he's, the opposite of Alex, appears good/victim... but a bad guy in reality, not what he seems and am not sure I want Alex to go down for that guys.
For Michael... YEP! The noble ultimate self sacrific things works good for Michael or Linc but the jury is gonns stay out on Whistler for a bit.
Oh ... and if he has to go I REALLY want him to know he's loved! If he can't see Pam or Cam ( he should ... its only fair ) he needs to talk to them.
I posted a sequel on this one a few minutes ago :o) Enjoy tonight
His desperate love -- you can see its her and Cam that keeps him from floating away for good -- for her and his lil boy that makes a Alex a different man.
For all the thing he is or isn't the fact that he loves -- it was rather unexpected to me when they threw it into the mix -- so deeply and completely shifts him a lot for me.
That was something all on its own but when they showed us that she still loved him and wanted him as badly he wanted her ( she put up a protective front because he hurt her but she couldnt hide it)... let us know he was loved in return he was a very different character.
Its sad :o) They're all sad :o(
I hope we see her again someday.
I wish he'd have gotten to see her just once. Linc held Veronica... Michael held Sara... it meants so much to both but I doubt we'll ever see Alex have that chance to know first hand face to face that he's loved. * sniff... sniff *
In the meantime, it is interesting in moments of repose that he longs for death, when in the light of day he was willing to kill Whistler to insure his longevity. I love how his mind is at cross purposes.
Go back and check out the comment a couple back where I talked about Alex living, fighting his way to the surface... slipping under, like a man thats drowning.
Maybe if he actually dries out from the drugs, he'll be able to deal with what his life has become--or at least, he'll be forced to deal with it.
Sadly I believe once he gets past the withdrawal the weight of what he's become, all the things he's done, will eat him alive.
TRAGIC MAN!!
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But maybe he can still get some sort of Kellerman-esque redemption...I will hope anyway. My big dream is he somehow helps Michael and Whistler--with no thought for himself.
Can't wait for 8 o'clock!
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Works for me! Except maybe without the helping Whistler part. I have a strong feeling he's, the opposite of Alex, appears good/victim... but a bad guy in reality, not what he seems and am not sure I want Alex to go down for that guys.
For Michael... YEP! The noble ultimate self sacrific things works good for Michael or Linc but the jury is gonns stay out on Whistler for a bit.
Oh ... and if he has to go I REALLY want him to know he's loved!
If he can't see Pam or Cam ( he should ... its only fair ) he needs to talk to them.
I posted a sequel on this one a few minutes ago :o)
Enjoy tonight
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