I'm done with livejournal... its turned very stupid to me... I will still be checking up on you all though.. and commenting if it calls for that... just not writing.... Bye Bye livejournal.... this will soon be deleted.

had a good sleep.... didnt wake up in the middle of the night... or have dreams that I can remember... Ive decided I need to start taking more pictures again.. Im feelin it... that itch inside... mmmmm god I LOVE this Queens of the Stone Age song.... yumm yumm yumm..... but yeah.. Im downloading the song Save Me by Queen... Joel pointed it out to ( Read more... )

God.. just sitting next to him... I could smell him... intoxicating me... pulling at me.... and I had to resist.. I couldn't do a thing... just sit there and pray that his arm accidentally grazed mine.... or his foot would kick mine... ANYTHING... a touch... a look...... I kept drifting off... thinking of when I was allowed to stare into his eyes ( Read more... )

just thoughts.. random thoughts... I'd never been with anyone else.... maybe it was me fucking this up... trying to find reasons... and I was looking from the wrong perspective... questioning something.... and I did... and I was fucking stupid.... as joel put it.... "tearing a perfectly good couple apart"... he's right... and I know that now... I ( Read more... )

MY ASS SAYS WOCKA WOCKA!

Hehehe... Fozzie is fucking rad.. his head is "in" my crotch... should keep me going for hours.. hahah

Ok, I was writing a big long entry and I got disconnected.... and it wasn't because my brother signed on... just out of the blue... maybe a sign that I shouldn't have said all the things I did... so I won't... bah... *crosses fingers* please let it be a GOOD sign

What's so great about me?... What does everyone else see that I don't? ... *shrug* so confusing... I've always been shit.. and now its like.... Wow.... weeeeird... hmm... well, I know Joel is sleeping... so Im taking time doing my shit.... hmm... wonder if he'd be interested in goin cd shopping with me.. yeah... rrrr.... 100 bucks.... I want like 5 ( Read more... )

I feel bad... I don't know how to handle this stuff very well... but I can't just leave it behind and forget it... and move on... takes time... and I need to be careful about attaching myself to other people, if at all.. right now... or they will probably get hurt... its better now than never... I'm not sure about anything... so it's best to just ( Read more... )

damn... Ive already overdrawn on my account?... this whole paycheck Ive got in my hand is going to nothing..... because chris gets a 100 dollar check from me..... I gave away 100 dollars like some rich fool.... fuck me..... bah.. whatever... moneys fucking stupid... Im gonna go put this in the bank now... Im exhausted though... feeling kinda edgy ( Read more... )

Major crash last night..... but it got so much better... even before Joel came around... Chris said.. "I love you too".... the exact words ive been waiting for for over 2 weeks... it wasnt "I still have love for you and care about you".... like I was just a close friend or a sister... but... it was "I love you too"... all day Ive thought of that ( Read more... )